vOID

It is like having :
No eyes when you need to be visible
No ears when you need to be heard
No mouth when you need to speak
No hands when you need to be calmed down
No hugs when you need few of it

Well I think that is so called Go's Life in work in process
I dunno what to think
I dunno what to do
It felt like you just get thrown into deepest well in your heart
and somehow I don't get my heart hurt at all... but what I feel is only numbness in my heart
Is this what it meant by the time you forget how to love your heart dies?

How many times I try to forget and try to live it up my life... it still nothing to feel
Some people say you don't need one reliable man to calm yourself because you can survive on your own
I CAN but somehow sometimes... I need one too.
My deepest regret maybe when I decide to start things up and then ended it with catastrophy
Made my life only become a slut and being looked down because my appearance only not my brain.
Well actually the mega trend that comes into life right now is.
Your look defines what BF you will have and your brain only a condiment or you can call side dish

 Actually when I type this down... tears start crumbling before my eyes... dunno why but this numbness with a lil pain deep in my heart... Start to take over my head... and terrorizing me with this slightly pain but really really deep inside. It seems like you drown in the ocean of sorrows without nobody cares and can help...

I always ended being the one who hears who sees who bears ,,, so maybe today I dedicated my sadness into my account of live... I bbm my friends... my specials... Girlfriends

Who have lots of troubles before getting their right man
 Chatting with her especially Tina... gives me a bump... I know her stories almost all of them.
She had so many sorrows and miseries thrown into her life. But her priceless act and valor bring her into this day. with the man she loves till now and somehow will be get into a marriage... and now... she lives with happiness without pain that constrain her... I am so proud of her life... even though I am only a BFF from high school. I was very very lucky to meet them with all of my BFFs.

The stories will be ended with another poem of course... and still my  heart cannot feel the warmth of someone inside it... maybe it is like an ICE without the core :-)


SORROWBy Go Darmadi Unjaya
Reaping what you sow is the sentences of heart
Leaving it behind with the doors never open to come forward
Stuck in the middle of nowhere constrain like a chained evil
Wanna screw off but never have a courage to because hope still exist
But heart and hope most likely frozen deep inside to the IGLOO
Still wondering such hands will warm it up someday but... not today...
Faraway heaven is like melody, calm but make it hard to find
Sitting here alone without half of your heart... is VOID
Maybe this is what I deserve to get?
Down to the level of my deepest fear ... BEING ALONE