Get used to be used by people that I used... :-) :-) :-)

That is what my condition is... hehe too late to update so I will update it tomorrow hahaha.... It is already tomorrow though @.@

Well it is not good but it is not bad either... SO WHAT IS IT???

It has been months since i posted here... welll such a long time freezing this blog up. but yeah.. I have my story... but again... not only a good one but a bad one too... haha

Well... my sixth semester is over with tears and laughs... and i am gonna say i am quite proud of it even though still have some heart problem of disappointment I still have a lil bit of a happy ending. It is not an ending though but you can call it the ending of one chapter in my life...

As you can see... It is about a boy again. I stop my previous since I get a mind opener from one case in my life... I am sick ... really sick. and then I have to get a treatment... then I got allergic to that treatment. and knowing that the truth was that I am so stressful and tired physically and mentally. Quite a problem... I get skin allergic for the time I was in my project. But I keep fighting since i will not give up till the last breath I breathe. Then I finish my project brilliantly... with 2 warning letters that seems so untrue but real... hahahaha... quite jumbled there... 

Then moving onto second phase that I recovered from my allergy and start gymming again. voila at last... Well getting healthier day by day I found out that once a CAT it will always a CAT... there I am gonna stay dormant for love since I cannot perfectly control the life of mine...

Third phase... I realize that my heart was already stolen since the day I met him after the first Development program at my campus... i was an instructor for the physical disciplinary program and he was my junior. I didn't get the chance to train him but somehow he knew me... That time in the SQUARE... I was introduced to him and knowing him. I find it very funny though since i am the senior and he is still freshman that time. but his personality... attract me. I was afraid then to give my heart again. but in the time that passing so fast... Our relationship getting funnier and somehow better... I know him, chatting with him. get to know him. but when I have my project I am losing contact with him for 2 and half months... But then after all of my project is gone... I ask him to meet me. and he came.... that made me so happy really happy. the following days we spent it like a good friend but never be a bestfriend... hahaha.. because in the end... I made a mistake. have him mad... and yeah... we lost contacts till now. ironically speaking... Last time I met him was when the second development program was begun... and I serve him... got a lil chance to ask him what happened. but i only got to see him teasing me... Yeah whatever.. but the last day i saw him... He told me "better we don't see each other anymore" well yeah that is harsh and heart throbbing for me. but that is again... the story of my life. I am grateful for it for I learnt something by IT... STILL... you are stealing my heart until now. miss you like a crazy but never can say that I like you a lot I wanna try to be your boyfriend someday... :-)

For you who are so lonely and closed... I am gonna tell you one poet ...

LONEWOLF by Go Darmadi Unjaya

Losing will get us chill

Craving for a deal without meal

Thy show the prove that shove

Glaring harshly leaving quickly

Thou lonewolf have a soul

A wither one to be honed

A desperate one to be  cared

A lovely one to be noticed

As you can see why it is free

Because the heart that it is pure

For the soul to be free

so that it will be cherish more and more

Be with me o thy lonewolf

As if the world is the hope

Walk closely to be hold 

Because you are my lonely wolf

PS : for someone who has WHY in his name... (missing you so much bro)