Inspire plus rational = JUDAS KISS

30 minutes ago i watched movie called JUDAS KISS played by charlie david...
It is so inspiring that i can really jiggled myself... but thing will improve from now on... since i know that a mistake SOMETIMES have to be corrected by ourselves to somehow change the future... well maybe butterfly effects will change not always good thing to bad thing... but bad things to good things. because... everything happens for a reason right? that's why when we can change our future by decision making once again... USE it... or LOSE it...
and i almost crying for that film W-O-W hehehehe
and maybe i am making a mistake now...
but i will correct it in the mean time.
i am so bliss but not blind

My NEWS

Listening to the songs that i've been left out for so long you know it is great to hear it but greater if i hear your voice

My heart says DO IT HEARTILY
and i just PFFt how can i do this without love?
but now i know... at least i have to try to stand up again with this new love and chance bestowed upon me.
and i hope that i will not fail this one again...
sometimes i am afraid but if it is not now? when will it be for me to stand up and fight my demons
It is 0.54 and my head is spinning around studying Business and religion even civic... and i feel so bliss because i know i am here to face IT... and to love again...
premonition said to me i will get into 3rd relationship... and i hope it will be the last...
just a jumbled sentence i hope someone will know it XD

Well to say that is from my facebook is not wrong... in this blog i will write even more...

well frankly speaking today i have succeeded in my last exam for ethics... hmm felt so good this morning, sitting up with friends do things together and making bonds with them. i think now i am "that" strong since i am with you guys and with my new boyfriend. still zipped out for information but surely it will be revealed soon. i dunno why i accept one flirting moment guy as my boyfriend now. but yeah i want to move on with him now since i don't have anything in common with NF anymore...

BUT... one question still remains in my head. IS IT for real that i can be with him so soon, so fast, is this for real or only a redemption because of NF... i still not sure... until now... maybe it will be my darkest secret by me to him. GOD i know that in my head i don't feel anything about NF anymore but what about my heart? i am not feeling anything YEAH for now. but how it will be when i see him again elsewhere, can i be this strong when I stated that i've moved on with my new boyfriend? these are questions popping in my head screw things up for awhile.

BUT... again and again to be in relationship with TCJ, i am so glad that i find this man. but he's sick and he won't talk to me whether it is dangerous or not. brain cancer stadium two... i mean you are kidding right? when you get a cancer and you still can W-O-W ing and be happy about it by not telling your parents about it. only one day that i knew him in person, how can i know his personality, his character, his daily life, etc. too fast to be true is not what i have in mind not now or not yesterday either. but why i keep having the thought that i will succeed with him until death due us apart someday... WELL as a merely human i only can hope for the best things with him with TCJ... from December 8,2011 until i don't know when it will be lasting...

well in about 4 days i will celebrate my birthday with my families... not sure that i will get what i want. but yeah i hope in December 18, 2011 i will get things or thing or so... that i really need the most... arghhh feel uncertain of waiting these days to come... will it be good? will it be marvelous? or just a crap?

I BELIEVE IT WILL BE GOOD yeah...

NOW I AM GO DARMADI UNJAYA will be great as a man standing withstand tsunami by himself and lots of people surround him... HIHIHI

dunno what i am saying but... hopefully this thing worth to post yeah...

NOW 1.13 and still not asleep writing a blog about my life and WOO HOO feel so refreshing...

WITH YOU NOW...

NOW I AM MOVING ON... with you...
my new boyfriend... hope we can find our path in life

Truth

Wow hari ini bener2 keren.. mat 2 jam dan i am so koleng
and in the night.. this is it...
TRUTH revealed...
again... wew... welll aku bertemu one of his EX... and he told me about things that was not supposed to be happened... i know i know that it seems really awkward how i get to know his ex...
here goes... I add his ex and then he ask me for meeting....
i ask him about my ex and told a little truth that really helpful because both of their story didn't seem to match in my ears... wow... and again my eyes are opened to know how foolish i was in the past...
to know his love for me... WHAT IS LOVE anyway? for him i strongly emphasized...

welll the others will be come up shortly to expose my life with bittersweet truth... or maybe only bitter one that will not shock me again in the future hahahaha....

aww my god NF... you are so busted and double standard and of course HYPOCRITE in love... lols


you say A you do A you don't like A but you do it by yourself... arghh.... was that thing you called love when you were with me? NOW i know that it is not... not after these 3 months... not after a decade... at least... I forgive you now... to know that you are not that hard to kick from my life... your smile and your face are BIG BIG BS anyway...
hahahaha smile and go through the next day in your life so you will find (ME) a prince charming in the next period of love... and definitely preferred for a buddhist one... if not please not a hypocrite christian please

TODAY XD TT

Well hari ini sih hidup gua bener2 lumayan doank... pertama lumayan karena pengabis nya lancar lumayan karena ga ada masalah apa2 hari ini... but... otak serasa mau pecah gara2 matematika yang bulet2 woaakak... untung aja udah bisa tadi hehehehe

well readers... tadi sih bener2 hambar hidupku soalnya kesepian sih diantara banyaknya orang di UKP wogh... is that really happening? WELL YEAH... kenapa setelah putus kok rasanya masih belum ada yang nemuin aku lagi. apa iya sih emang aku ini bener2 not interesting boring and bla bla bla... well at least i am not too high class for anything... just need a man who loves me without questioning my love but accept it like i am accepting his... just wanna be free when i am with him. laughing together, solving problem together and many things to do it together... haahah

i think back to the statement... i am just a simple guy who wants a simple life, strong personality BF and again... 200 restaurants and 25 hotels around the world woakakak...

i want to create things beautifully for every people and of course my soulmate in the day i will meet him... awww such a wonderful simple life i have if that thing is OK for me now... haaa... lonely and need a friend or a man

Gift From My sister HA

HOLIDAY BAGEL AND CRANBERRY BLA BLA BLA

Today I am so happy like so HAPPY...
coming nowhere my sister is giving me a treat... WOO HOO
STARBUCKS cranberry and Holiday bagel...
The taste of both are good and because they are from my sister it add some taste of happiness in them wokakaakak..

Arghhh bahagia sekali rasanya karena tahu bahwa dunia masih sangat2 baik padaku... woghh.. love you sis...
mungkin segini aja yang bisa di share untuk hari ini
Hari ini belajar mikro ekonomi bener2 nyenengin OGHHH i love economy all of it.. huaaa...
dan waktu yang aku habisin bersama temen2 hari ini is the best because everything is the best everyday and always be the best woakaka... love you guys..
and love my life... hopefully someday someone will read my journal of this life in this blog and amazed... because this is who i am and always be... LOVE IT

NB : LOVE YOU FAMS... LOVE YOU FRIENDS...

Keluargaku dan SATU HARIKU

segala sesuatu yang membuatku senang adalah keluargaku sekarang
ternyata aku adalah orang munafik dulu yang berkata bahwa keluargaku tidak lebih penting dari pacarku... namun itu salah... yang paling penting adalah keluargaku baru si DIA>.< wiajajja

tapi yah begitulah kalo kita sedang dibutakan asmara...

hari ini aku senang banget karena yah nenekku berulang tahun yang ke 79... kita tadi rame2 ke nan yuan untuk acara makan2 alias jiak jiak an woakakaka... makan banyak ampe gendut banget deh aku... benar2 momen yang tak terlupakan selama siang itu. berbincang-bincang hingga bersenda gurau sampai tertawa terpingkal-pingkal pun udah aku lakuin tadi.. habis ya gimana lagi kedua ccku selalu bisa membuat adiknya yang teraniaya ini ketawa sih woakaka... yah sudahlah emang kek gitu kok woakak

setelah dari nanyuan aku bersama cc cc cfu pulang ke rumah nai2 lagi... aku mulai bermain SHOWTIME yaitu permainan karaoke interaktif yang sangat WOO HOO... ternyata aku baru tahu bahwa suaraku tidak seburuk yang aku pikirkan... at least untuk beberapa lagu aku masih bisa menunjukkan kebolehan dan mendapat nilai yang sangat keren... wuahhh makin senang deh aku hari ini karena tahu bahwa aku ternyata bisa bernyani... acaak accaakk woakakaka

malamnya kami sekeluarga memutuskan untuk pergi ke Galaxy Mall and yeahh.. di sana bener2 kek surga buat aku. soalnya aku dimanja dengan diperbolehkan membeli Fehlix Buhler dan pierre cardin dalam bentuk underwear... wkwkwk... mungkin agak aneh bin ajaib tapi aku sukaaa banget koleksi underwear yang berbagai bentuk dan berbagai warna.. habis enak dipake and juga S-E-X-Y woakak.... tapi hari ini bukan hanya mendapat materi aku juga mendapat sesuatu secara mental, aku bertemu dengan orang yang aku pernah taksir dulu... tapi ga tahu deh dianya inget apa ga tentang aku woak... banyak ketemu cowok keren tadi walaupun aku tahu ga mungkin banget ada cowok yang kesengsem ama aku untuk pandangan pertama dan menanyaiku nomer hape xixixi... cakep semua sih nah aku??? XD XD XD

welll the last place to visit for the day is Wendy's, di sana kita makan kek monster... buanyakkk... paket2 nya 2 porsi, burger 1, baked potato 1, frosty 1, kacang 50 an, waffles asin 2 porsi, es jeruk 1/4 gelas, lemon tea sedikit... WOGH... buanyak bukan woakaka... pulang dengan hati senang peruut kenyang sehingga makin lapang (LHOH???)

HAri ini juga aku seneng soalnya bisa ngajarin mamaku untuk mengoperasikan BBnya yang baaru (kyaaa mamaku punya dan aku GA wakakaka... tapi ya emang gapapa seh lols). ngajarin mama buka tutup, kunci, BBMan, dll senyuman beliau membuat duniaku makin bersinar... LOVE YOU MOM...

final part of the story is when we do a call with my cuz in skype for about 11 minutes... kyaa he is so wonderful and of course great as ever... huff... seneng seneng seneng

harapan ku untuk hari yang baru karena ini udah jam 0.17 hahaha...
I want this day will be beautiful for me and again i hope i will find somebody that i love and will love me to the max and change my life into a better one also giving his best for supporting me like i will support him to the max...

AISHHH andai ae kamu sadar bahwa aku sudah mulai jatuh hati padamu wahai seseorang didekatku... pasti aku akan mulai pdkt serius denganmu untuk menempuh jenjang baru berpacaran woakaka... kalau bisa sih.. tapi harusnya sih bisa
AKU YAKIIINNNN >.<

HEHEHE udahan dulu deh... ga tidur2 gua... besok bisa2 telat AWW... ga mau the last lesson telat aku woakakak...

PS : HEY YOU the lantern of my life... you are a pumpkin that can burst my heart when you near and start to whisper in my ear... XD XD XD

DUNIA kan terus Berlalu

Semilir angin menghunus pedang
menelisik raga merangkul sunyi
menyentuh dada berpangkal luka
hari ini dingin sepi bercampur luka

Tancap paku berbekas merah
kisah dimulai tawa
kisah diakhir tangis
namun kisah diakhir berawal lagi

Embun terpecik mata terusik
cipta kalbu membelai sabar
hari baru yang telah datang
awal dari bentangan alam semesta

akhir asmara bukan akhir dunia
tutuplah buku dan buatlah baru
gemerincing lonceng cinta
kan terdengar jika maju

jadilah belajar jikalau salah
jadikan motivasi jikalau jatuh
lihatlah indah jikalau buruk
berusahalah hidup jikalau MATI

dunia tak sekedar aku dan kau
namun aku dan mereka
kan kubuka cinta baru
kan kubuka pintu baru
kan kupeluk jiwa baru
dengan CINTA yang lebih baru

PS : I WILL FIND YOU AGAIN LOVE... no... JIWAKU

Problems yeah GIVING UP >>> NO

Well This is my story about these lives i've never shout for about 2 years up to now...
from the first time i edited my blog i know that i will never can escape from darkness within me that means PROBLEMS

AGAIN... my name is GO and i already taken hospitality major for 1 semester minus days before last exam...

I am just a man who loves other man but never get a chance to get it right.
not long ago i just being deceived by one person and wounded so badly...

That man never talk to me about anything in the term of 2 months of his relationship with me. and the truth had spoken 4 days ago and yeah i was like stabbed into my heart and killed by those words...

BUT...
Hari ini ceritanya udah beda... aku ga mau lagi terlarut dengan yang namanya sakit hati berkepanjangan karena itu ga ada gunanya sama sekali... buat apa gitu loh mantan yang katanya aja cinta mati dan mau komitmen sama2 menjalani hidup tapi ujung2nya dia langgar sendiri dipikirin... MAKAN ATI terus deh namanya DAN BODOH... hahahaha...

well sudah empat hari aku putus dengan DIA tanpa ada jalan keluar untuk berbaikan dan memberikan ampunan... well kalau aku sih sudah hari ini akibat alunan musik dari OOM PONGKY yang bener2 menyentuh jiwaku dengan lirik yang WOW

Sekarang GO sudah tidak sedih namun kuat dan tahu bahwa hidup ga akan berakhir hanya karena satu lelaki yang sama sekali ternyata bukan mencintai GO namun hanya mengambil kesempatan yang GO berikan padanya semata-mata bagi dia ini hanya kesempatan dan bukan cinta yang tulus dengan komitmen yang dibawa terus menerus. SO KE LAUT AJA DEH

TENANG AJA... aku ga akan dengan jahatnya ga mengakui kalo kamu bukan mantanku kok... at least aku ga akan pernah lupa dengan momen yang sangat indah yang udah kita lewatin berdua... namun harus sadar satu hal. bahwa ternyata komitmen dan semua perkataanmu padaku hanya bisa dinilai dengan sebuah bulu putih yang sangat ringan alias... sekali kena tiup gosip dll LANGSUNG lepas landas dan hilang entah ke mana... saat itu pada saat aku ingin mengakhiri segalanya kau bilang bahwa aku harus menjaga komitmenku dengan baik... namun rupanya ada yang dengan mudahnya menanggalkan komitmennya hanya karena tuduhan kemunafikan agamanya sendiri... aku tidak akan berkata bahwa aku tidak suka agama KRISTEN... tapi aku akan berkata aku tidak suka dengan orang KRISTEN yang munafik seperti orang2 yang dengan kedok agama itu menyalahkan status diri dan pilihan tiap orang

Well cukup untuk nostalgianya intinya adalah... aku beragama aku memberikan pelayanan dengan tulus dan itulah yang penting, lagian percuma juga kan walau anda adalah orang normal namun pada saat pelayanan anda tebar pesona dan tidak tulus melayani TUHAN... seseorang dapat dikatakan MUNAFIK bukan karena mereka kristen dan GAY sehingga tidak dapat memberkati sesamanya... ORANG MUNAFIK adalah orang yang sama sekali ga bisa menerima dirinya sendiri namun ingin bersikap sempurna bagi TUHAN... itulah munafik dan tak heran bahwa KAU dikatai munafik oleh banyak orang

GO sama sekali gapapa membelamu hingga akhir, dikata-katai oleh temanmu hingga hatiku makin hancur dan lumat oleh tajamnya perkataan cumi2. namun satu hal yang membuat GO kecewa... saat kamu sama sekali tidak jujur akan segala sesuatunya dari awal...

WELL THAT WAS MY PROBLEM YESTERDAY dan aku sudah amend with that problem...
sekarang GO akan jadi lebih baik dan akan lebih memperhatikan waktu pdkt yang dibutuhkan untuk membuat segala sesuatunya ke depan menjadi lebih baik. pdkt denganmu 6 hari saja adalah kecerobohan GO yang paling utama dan tidak mendengarkan apa kata PAPA dan MAMA adalah kesalahan terfatal yang pernah GO lakukakan dalam hidup ini... namun karena sudah terlanjur terjadi aku hanya bisa bilang... YA SUDAHLAH... kan udah selesai


NOW
... AMBIL PENA DAN TULIS CERITA CINTAMU YANG SELANJUTNYA
maju GO GO GO GO GO...

MY LOVE I LOVE YOU

After lot of years passed by... i finally find the one that i really love till now...
so i still believe in true love because i already found it 2 weeks ago...
maybe i am still a kid but yeah my strong beliefs about love will never disappear because..
NOW I AM WITH YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU WKKWK