JUST A HAPPY AND PERFECT DAY...
This is for you ... :-)
As the night falls heavenly to the primrose dew
A new point had been reached and the last closed
Chosen a reality having no second thought
Clumsiness Egoistic prejudice are all gone by the light of shining maiden
Can the world sustain
Can the leaves become new
And...
Can the sun be risen once again
IT CAN and IT WILL
Smile distances further due by family
small number didn't mean anything but happiness ones still remember
Carving is gone and lesson learnt becoming more adult
Many colors and impurities in the canvas are now subdued into a crystal clear picture of
19 years old GO...
Because it shine it needs crystal it should be clear
Having one heart with impurities to be pure
Have a life amazing love and love and love brightly...
Until the second commitment being made across the universe
Beseech one gentle breeze and a caring branch for the living leaves
...Thank You...
Papa Mama Cc Lia Jiefu Winston Cc Vani
BFFs
Friends
and everyone who remembers :-)
LOVE YOU ALL
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Monday, December 10, 2012
Hi... Again
Well guys... it was so long for me not to update this blog... but to cover it being a simple modular canal... :-) let me write what happens in my life in these past weeks
28 November - 10 December 2012by Go Darmadi Unjaya
Hearing a melody that completely blind my eyes
Starring from heaven to hell turning upside down
Crashing like a butterfly snapped by the spider
Cannot go back cannot go on entangled with the web of fate
Wishing through the vain chord that finally loosen up
All the commitment turned into a blur statement
Getting weaker and scary of what may come to be
No one getting better that look up the same sky as me
Weary eyes looking up to the sky feeling so blue and frustrated
Not being able to hug someone that share you a heart
And that the time promises broken apart like a crystal shot in the heart
Starting the flaw and moles all over again being a shit in the starry heaven
Carving out the pain that consume one shining diamond in their life
Becoming a beast that only do things instinctively and devour what come into his eyes
Crying Screaming Laughing Torturing life might end one's sickness but CAN I?
Woman out of nowhere struck a lightning to one's heart crush anything make a change
Making a new rules of vigilante that save the day but hurt other for a momen
Raining hard breaking the silence worrying us out of love
Loneliness coming and start drowning to silence
Well in the center of savannah grease my turmoil heart
Ask me how to life instead of how to death
Death comes apart with life and give us nothing but misery
Will it be measured or it will be redeemed...
I only have 2 eyes , 2 hands, 2 ears, and 1 heart to see, touch, hear, and feel... The future of one's decisions
28 November - 10 December 2012by Go Darmadi Unjaya
Hearing a melody that completely blind my eyes
Starring from heaven to hell turning upside down
Crashing like a butterfly snapped by the spider
Cannot go back cannot go on entangled with the web of fate
Wishing through the vain chord that finally loosen up
All the commitment turned into a blur statement
Getting weaker and scary of what may come to be
No one getting better that look up the same sky as me
Weary eyes looking up to the sky feeling so blue and frustrated
Not being able to hug someone that share you a heart
And that the time promises broken apart like a crystal shot in the heart
Starting the flaw and moles all over again being a shit in the starry heaven
Carving out the pain that consume one shining diamond in their life
Becoming a beast that only do things instinctively and devour what come into his eyes
Crying Screaming Laughing Torturing life might end one's sickness but CAN I?
Woman out of nowhere struck a lightning to one's heart crush anything make a change
Making a new rules of vigilante that save the day but hurt other for a momen
Raining hard breaking the silence worrying us out of love
Loneliness coming and start drowning to silence
Well in the center of savannah grease my turmoil heart
Ask me how to life instead of how to death
Death comes apart with life and give us nothing but misery
Will it be measured or it will be redeemed...
I only have 2 eyes , 2 hands, 2 ears, and 1 heart to see, touch, hear, and feel... The future of one's decisions
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Time Actually Can Go Backwards
Do you guys what actually makes me happy now?
That is I have found the passion once more to have lots of things in my life.
Lan Kwai Fong 1
The first movie I've watched today taught me that Love can be found anywhere...
In the night club, in the place that people said and me also said that cannot find anything worth than One Night Stand or just a single glance of perfection from men or women we desired. But that actually happened in this movie and taught me a lot about new perspective that "LOVE CAN BE FOUND ANYWHERE BECAUSE YOU MEANT IT." And yeah I know I have been doing my activities again with all about the sex things and hook ups even play with one's heart when I truly love one man in my life. That I was very ashamed and yeah even the film told that second chance is a possible way to redeem yourself from the pain that you have given to your commitment. I believe that everyone deserves a true love. from wherever they should have it. So maybe even my body is being sexed up by lots of people... someday I can find true love that will give me everything that I need to have. and showed me that "Love is based on commitment and promise and I will never walk away from that promise never again".
Lan Kwai Fong 2
More of hot guys more of hot girls... but definitely this is not just a poor sexed up movie for me. Because this movie taught me a lot about this world with the nightlife of it. I learned that differences may take our sincerity to love another not because we love the money but because we are afraid to take chances believing in ourselves that WE CAN DO THE RELATIONSHIP WITH LOVE. Now I know why money is not everything compares to love... because with love you can buy money... but with money you will never buy a single love even the one that love money, cause what they love is your money not you. LOVE IS THE FIRST THING AND THE MONEY IS A BONUS IF YOU ARE MORE FORTUNATE... that is my conclusion. and the best one of my conclusion YOU CAN DO ANYTHING BECAUSE OF LOVE... like in the previous series that the man chase the woman until the crowded streets swearing that they will not drink and not loving another woman other than Jennifer... In this second movie... LOVE CAN MAKE THE TIME TURN BACKWARD and what I love is the happy ending of finally finding love and your happiness even redeemed yourself from your mistake by doing all your best to be with someone you love. Once I realize that, I am crying out loud that I've done some mistakes out of these 2 weeks to be precise... I love Sofian... I do and I am very sincere I have no other consideration of held up this feeling.but I am so very sorry that I broke my promise for playing again with men. not once twice but 5 times in one week only. I do make my time not worthy again for you Sof... I want to come clean again and again. even I make the same mistake I still have my determination and will to be with you. I wanna be with you Sof... even I have to try years from now... I only want to be with you... because... not only once you've helped me out from the dark, but many times until I lost counts... This is me writing to you sincerely... even I have doing with another person. I cannot erase that you are still my mind's number 1...
Sorry for the man that will be hurt out of this... I will make up the best of me... I will... say sorry...
Thanks god for the lesson today and making understand... that you have to walk through even you are hurt and fucked up... BECAUSE YOU RUN AND WALK FOR YOUR LOVE
BACKWARD by Go,Darmadi Unjaya
Leaves that is falling apart
like how your body crumble with the sky is falling
Make lots of playing in your game will have parties hurt
not only you but others
So make an end to it by high determination and persistence
I know that someday I deserve what called backward time love
When Life can be turn backward instead being stopped.
You will know and learn your mistake and move forward without making the same mistakes
But...
How If you are a foolish person who makes another same mistakes...
Relax and calm is the best solution...
Know that everyone makes mistakes and not just once they make the same mistake
So... What to do...?
Backward your time and have a redemption to your selfishly Acted things
And still never give up your love...
Because you will never know that love can come out from anywhere anytime he wants :-)
I LOVE YOU SOFIAN ARIF SUSANTO
Sorry that these passed few days I am not in my best state...
I know I am so messed up with life because my clinginess to you
I know that I am not worthy a penny after I've done so many ONS these weeks breaking my commitment so easily...
but..
I will redeemed it even I have to wait all my life... maybe people will laugh... but If this is love be true... WAITING SHALL BE TRUE TOO... I WILL DO EVERYTHING ANYTHING FOR YOU EVEN YOU DON'T ASK... but I COULDN't DO 1 THING even if you asked... LEAVING YOU...
CAUSE WE ARE BROTHERS, WE ARE FRIENDS, WE ARE BESTFRIENDS, and Someday I hope that WE ARE LOVERS, and WE ARE HUSBANDS...
NB : I LOVE HIM... only him.
That is I have found the passion once more to have lots of things in my life.
Lan Kwai Fong 1
The first movie I've watched today taught me that Love can be found anywhere...
In the night club, in the place that people said and me also said that cannot find anything worth than One Night Stand or just a single glance of perfection from men or women we desired. But that actually happened in this movie and taught me a lot about new perspective that "LOVE CAN BE FOUND ANYWHERE BECAUSE YOU MEANT IT." And yeah I know I have been doing my activities again with all about the sex things and hook ups even play with one's heart when I truly love one man in my life. That I was very ashamed and yeah even the film told that second chance is a possible way to redeem yourself from the pain that you have given to your commitment. I believe that everyone deserves a true love. from wherever they should have it. So maybe even my body is being sexed up by lots of people... someday I can find true love that will give me everything that I need to have. and showed me that "Love is based on commitment and promise and I will never walk away from that promise never again".
Lan Kwai Fong 2
More of hot guys more of hot girls... but definitely this is not just a poor sexed up movie for me. Because this movie taught me a lot about this world with the nightlife of it. I learned that differences may take our sincerity to love another not because we love the money but because we are afraid to take chances believing in ourselves that WE CAN DO THE RELATIONSHIP WITH LOVE. Now I know why money is not everything compares to love... because with love you can buy money... but with money you will never buy a single love even the one that love money, cause what they love is your money not you. LOVE IS THE FIRST THING AND THE MONEY IS A BONUS IF YOU ARE MORE FORTUNATE... that is my conclusion. and the best one of my conclusion YOU CAN DO ANYTHING BECAUSE OF LOVE... like in the previous series that the man chase the woman until the crowded streets swearing that they will not drink and not loving another woman other than Jennifer... In this second movie... LOVE CAN MAKE THE TIME TURN BACKWARD and what I love is the happy ending of finally finding love and your happiness even redeemed yourself from your mistake by doing all your best to be with someone you love. Once I realize that, I am crying out loud that I've done some mistakes out of these 2 weeks to be precise... I love Sofian... I do and I am very sincere I have no other consideration of held up this feeling.but I am so very sorry that I broke my promise for playing again with men. not once twice but 5 times in one week only. I do make my time not worthy again for you Sof... I want to come clean again and again. even I make the same mistake I still have my determination and will to be with you. I wanna be with you Sof... even I have to try years from now... I only want to be with you... because... not only once you've helped me out from the dark, but many times until I lost counts... This is me writing to you sincerely... even I have doing with another person. I cannot erase that you are still my mind's number 1...
Sorry for the man that will be hurt out of this... I will make up the best of me... I will... say sorry...
Thanks god for the lesson today and making understand... that you have to walk through even you are hurt and fucked up... BECAUSE YOU RUN AND WALK FOR YOUR LOVE
BACKWARD by Go,Darmadi Unjaya
Leaves that is falling apart
like how your body crumble with the sky is falling
Make lots of playing in your game will have parties hurt
not only you but others
So make an end to it by high determination and persistence
I know that someday I deserve what called backward time love
When Life can be turn backward instead being stopped.
You will know and learn your mistake and move forward without making the same mistakes
But...
How If you are a foolish person who makes another same mistakes...
Relax and calm is the best solution...
Know that everyone makes mistakes and not just once they make the same mistake
So... What to do...?
Backward your time and have a redemption to your selfishly Acted things
And still never give up your love...
Because you will never know that love can come out from anywhere anytime he wants :-)
I LOVE YOU SOFIAN ARIF SUSANTO
Sorry that these passed few days I am not in my best state...
I know I am so messed up with life because my clinginess to you
I know that I am not worthy a penny after I've done so many ONS these weeks breaking my commitment so easily...
but..
I will redeemed it even I have to wait all my life... maybe people will laugh... but If this is love be true... WAITING SHALL BE TRUE TOO... I WILL DO EVERYTHING ANYTHING FOR YOU EVEN YOU DON'T ASK... but I COULDN't DO 1 THING even if you asked... LEAVING YOU...
CAUSE WE ARE BROTHERS, WE ARE FRIENDS, WE ARE BESTFRIENDS, and Someday I hope that WE ARE LOVERS, and WE ARE HUSBANDS...
NB : I LOVE HIM... only him.
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
In Dreams and In Love there is no impossibilities
udah lebih dari enam hari rasanya aku ga update blog ini... well miss this blog so much. but yeah... lagi ga ada uneg2 buat di share kemaren2... ada sih cuman males nulis. banyak banget yang udah terjadi di kehidupan ini... lols banyak tawa, tangis, marah, gusar, dan juga gundah. Tapi semua hal itu udah berlalu dan membuat seorang Go Darmadi Unjaya.... better... as a better man who love Sofian Arif Susanto day by day... lols Maybe i should call it was magical... to love someone that even you yourself still doubt that he can love you back... lols wokakaka tapi dari banyak quotes... aku belajar... bahwa tiap orang buat kesalahan udah dari lahir coy. banyak banget rasanya waktu buat kita untuk buat salah lalu membenarkannya, so apa sih yang kita dapet? PELAJARAN yang berharga yang buat kita ga ngulangin kesalahan itu...lols woakakak... so... ga ada salahnya nyoba dan salah... buat nanti ke depannya bener. bener. tapi untuk kasus kali ini. mungkin aku bener2 bodoh or keras kepala. Untuk terus mencoba sebaik mungkin menjadi lebih baik... well 50% for Sofian but the others for myself... hahahaah.... tapi yah karena dia juga aku bertahan dengan segenap kemampuan dan cintaku...
Lols lucu ya... banyak sekali momen2 yang udah kulewatkan sama dia... lols mulai dari momen berdua yang so sweet sampe momen berdua yang jutek abis. Bukan sempurna kalau aku menjabarkan dia sekarang. dia BANYAK sekali kurangnya, tipeku juga... hemmmmm no comment. tapi ya itu tadi... aku mungkin udah post di FB... but this is the complete version
Banyak yang lebih ganteng dan sempurna sebenarnya
Banyak yang lebih pinter dan kaya raya sebenarnya
Banyak juga yang mau sama seorang Go dan mencintai Go apa adanya
Banyak yang lebih baik dan lebih care sebenarnya
Banyak juga yang bisa aku deketin...
Namunnn... Bagiku... Sofian... PAS...
Dia ga sempurna, suaranya fals lagu pun dia rubah2 seenaknya
Dia itu cuek dan bener2 bullier sejati...
Dia itu orangnya bikin khawatir orang lain karena pencilakan dll
Dia itu orangnya ga mau dipegang kepalanya
Dia itu orangnya kadang serius kadang cerewet
Dia itu kalo jalan maju pas latihan kek robot kakunya
Dia itu bener-bener cinta sipil ampe tiada hari tanpa garap tugas sipil
Dia bukan orang yang pinter segalanya...
Dia juga matematikanya kadang agak payah
Dia juga bukan orang yang super ganteng kayak brad pitt or george clooney muda
Dia juga bukan orang yang bisa gampang bergaul.
Dia juga... kadang ngeselin dan buat aku sampe bener2 ga bisa tenang kalo sama dia(apalagi lek wes debat)
Dia itu semangat korsanya tinggi. care sama setiap orang yang dia bisa bantu
Dia itu cepat tanggap di saat setiap orang lagi butuh bantuan.
Dia itu penghibur sejati yang bisa ngerubah mood yang udah ancur jadi penuh bunga-bunga saking senengnya
Dia itu apa adanya tanpa ada ditutup-in, walaupun sebenernya aku masih merasakan dia sendirian... lols
Dia itu juga kuat kek robot yang tanpa capek selalu kerja kerja kerja futsal futsal dll.
Dia itu pantang menyerah sampe dia berhasil mencapai tujuannya...
Dia juga yang sering bully dan ngomong "MATIO" ke aku woakakaka....
Dia juga yang buat aku jatuh cinta dan nglindungin aku walaupun aku rasa itu cuman perasaanku...
So memang banyak orang bisa lebih baik dari Sofian... tapi untuk sekarang hingga waktu yang tak terbatas lagi... SOFIAN PAS buat aku.... di hati, di pikiran, hingga bagi jiwa raga rasanya... udah klop aja...
Hemmm nggombes segini banyak tangan juga jadi kesel... tapi ini uneg2ku... sekarang mungkin aku bukan lagi kagum sih... aku udah bener-bener sayang dan mungkinkah ini bakal menjadi cinta panjang... lols... Mungkin sekarang masih 51 hari lewat... lols cuman aku ga akan menyerah untuk terus bertahan bahkan setelah 200 hari untuk SOFIAN... kata orang ini gila... cuman yah pertama kalinya aku merelakan segalanya untuk satu orang yang hanya bisa buat aku ngelus dada tapi kangennya ga keruan... HAHAHAHA... progress masih berlanjut sih.... masih kurang 149 hari lagi... tapi kerasanya lama bangt... ccuman.... janji seorang laki-laki itu diuji... :-) TAKUT? pasti, cuman aku memilih untuk terus maju dan jadi pemenang dari ketakutanku sendiri... so... I will try my best... lols
LOVE TRANSCEND by Go Darmadi Unjaya
Semalam jingga bertekuk pandang
Membaur biru hijau dan rimbunnya pohon kahyangan
Bersimpu lutut terus berpanjat doa.
Berbahagialah wahai cinta
teruskanlah pesanku padanya sang Pujangga Cinta
Biarlah aku dibwa cinta ini menuju ke bagian darinya yang terlepas
Kain sutra membalut tanpa ada benang lapisan.
Saat itu ku tersenyum dan sambut sebuah cinta
"Hi SOF"
Lols lucu ya... banyak sekali momen2 yang udah kulewatkan sama dia... lols mulai dari momen berdua yang so sweet sampe momen berdua yang jutek abis. Bukan sempurna kalau aku menjabarkan dia sekarang. dia BANYAK sekali kurangnya, tipeku juga... hemmmmm no comment. tapi ya itu tadi... aku mungkin udah post di FB... but this is the complete version
Banyak yang lebih ganteng dan sempurna sebenarnya
Banyak yang lebih pinter dan kaya raya sebenarnya
Banyak juga yang mau sama seorang Go dan mencintai Go apa adanya
Banyak yang lebih baik dan lebih care sebenarnya
Banyak juga yang bisa aku deketin...
Namunnn... Bagiku... Sofian... PAS...
Dia ga sempurna, suaranya fals lagu pun dia rubah2 seenaknya
Dia itu cuek dan bener2 bullier sejati...
Dia itu orangnya bikin khawatir orang lain karena pencilakan dll
Dia itu orangnya ga mau dipegang kepalanya
Dia itu orangnya kadang serius kadang cerewet
Dia itu kalo jalan maju pas latihan kek robot kakunya
Dia itu bener-bener cinta sipil ampe tiada hari tanpa garap tugas sipil
Dia bukan orang yang pinter segalanya...
Dia juga matematikanya kadang agak payah
Dia juga bukan orang yang super ganteng kayak brad pitt or george clooney muda
Dia juga bukan orang yang bisa gampang bergaul.
Dia juga... kadang ngeselin dan buat aku sampe bener2 ga bisa tenang kalo sama dia(apalagi lek wes debat)
Dia itu semangat korsanya tinggi. care sama setiap orang yang dia bisa bantu
Dia itu cepat tanggap di saat setiap orang lagi butuh bantuan.
Dia itu penghibur sejati yang bisa ngerubah mood yang udah ancur jadi penuh bunga-bunga saking senengnya
Dia itu apa adanya tanpa ada ditutup-in, walaupun sebenernya aku masih merasakan dia sendirian... lols
Dia itu juga kuat kek robot yang tanpa capek selalu kerja kerja kerja futsal futsal dll.
Dia itu pantang menyerah sampe dia berhasil mencapai tujuannya...
Dia juga yang sering bully dan ngomong "MATIO" ke aku woakakaka....
Dia juga yang buat aku jatuh cinta dan nglindungin aku walaupun aku rasa itu cuman perasaanku...
So memang banyak orang bisa lebih baik dari Sofian... tapi untuk sekarang hingga waktu yang tak terbatas lagi... SOFIAN PAS buat aku.... di hati, di pikiran, hingga bagi jiwa raga rasanya... udah klop aja...
Hemmm nggombes segini banyak tangan juga jadi kesel... tapi ini uneg2ku... sekarang mungkin aku bukan lagi kagum sih... aku udah bener-bener sayang dan mungkinkah ini bakal menjadi cinta panjang... lols... Mungkin sekarang masih 51 hari lewat... lols cuman aku ga akan menyerah untuk terus bertahan bahkan setelah 200 hari untuk SOFIAN... kata orang ini gila... cuman yah pertama kalinya aku merelakan segalanya untuk satu orang yang hanya bisa buat aku ngelus dada tapi kangennya ga keruan... HAHAHAHA... progress masih berlanjut sih.... masih kurang 149 hari lagi... tapi kerasanya lama bangt... ccuman.... janji seorang laki-laki itu diuji... :-) TAKUT? pasti, cuman aku memilih untuk terus maju dan jadi pemenang dari ketakutanku sendiri... so... I will try my best... lols
LOVE TRANSCEND by Go Darmadi Unjaya
Semalam jingga bertekuk pandang
Membaur biru hijau dan rimbunnya pohon kahyangan
Bersimpu lutut terus berpanjat doa.
Berbahagialah wahai cinta
teruskanlah pesanku padanya sang Pujangga Cinta
Biarlah aku dibwa cinta ini menuju ke bagian darinya yang terlepas
Kain sutra membalut tanpa ada benang lapisan.
Saat itu ku tersenyum dan sambut sebuah cinta
"Hi SOF"
Monday, October 29, 2012
Kimi - Hana = You - Flower
This is the lyrics of JR song... I love it and this is for sofian too...
| Sono te hanasanai de hanasanai de
Boku ga soba ni iru kara Donna toki demo waratte waratte Hana wo sakasete yo | Don't let go of that hand, don't let go
Because I'm right next to you No matter when, just laugh, laugh And make the flowers bloom |
| Kimi no daisukina hana ga saita yo
Chiisana toge no aru hana ga kesa saita yo Sono toge de jibun wo mamoreru tsumori ka na Tsuyogatte bakari no hana kimi mitai da ne | The flower you love so much blossomed
The flower with small thorns blossomed, just this morning I guess it means to protect itself with those thorns It's a flower that only acts strong, quite like you |
| Nagashisa wo shiru hodo setsunaku narunda
Kimi ga nagashitekita namida no nukumori to shitte kara | The more I see of your kindness, the sadder I get
Ever since I realized it's the warmth left by the tears you've shed |
| Kimi ni aitakute aitakute
Futari de ireba iru hodo sabishiku naru nara Sabishikunaku naru made te wo tsunagou Sono te hanasanai de hanasanai de Boku ga soba ni iru kara Donna toki demo waratte waratte Hana wo sakasete yo | I want to see you, want to see you
If it's lonelier the more we are together Then let's simply hold hands until it's not lonely anymore Don't let go of that hand, don't let go Because I'm right next to you No matter when, just laugh, laugh And make the flowers bloom |
| Kimi ga dokka no hoshi ni hohoemi kakeru nara
Sora wo miageru dake de shiawase ni narunda | If some distant star makes you smile
Then just looking at the sky makes me happy |
| Nanigenai koto mo itoshiku omou no ha
Kimi to iu na no hana ga kono mune ni saita kara | The reason I now find the simplest things dear to me
Is because the flower known as you has blossomed in my heart |
| Kimi ni aitakute aitakute
Futari de ireba iru hodo sabishiku naru nara Sabishikunaku naru made te wo tsunagou Sono te hanasanai de hanasanai de Boku ga soba ni iru kara Donna toki demo waratte naite ageru kara Soba ni ite | I want to see you, want to see you
If it's lonelier the more we are together Then let's simply hold hands until it's not lonely anymore Don't let go of that hand, don't let go I'm right next to you No matter when, I'll laugh and cry for you So stay by my side |
| Mizu wo agenakya karete shimau kara
Sonna toge ja nani mo mamorenai yo Tsuyogatte bakari no hana nanda Sono toge de kizutsukanai de sonna ni mou nakanai de | If it's not watered, it'll wither
With such small thorns, it's impossible to protect anything It really is just acting strong, the flower Please don't be hurt by those thorns, and don't cry so |
| Sono te hanasanai yo hanasanai yo
Futari de ireba iru hodo sabishiku naru nara Sabishikunaku naru made te wo tsunagou Chiisana sono toge de boku no te wo tatoe kizutsuketemo | I won't let go of that hand, I won't let go
If it's lonelier the more we are together Then let's simply hold hands until it's not lonely anymore Even if my hand is hurt by the small thorns. |
Monday, October 15, 2012
This Song... is My life Now....
DISTANCE by Christina Perri and Jason Mraz (wrote the lyrics after hear it)
The sun is filling up the room
And I can hear you dreaming
Do you feel the way I do
Right now
I was feel I just give up
Cause the best part just falling
Call it anything but love
And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say I Love You and you are not listening
And how long can we keep this up up up?...
Please don't stand so close to me
Having trouble breathing
I am afraid of what you'll see
Right now
I give you everything I am
All my broken heart beats
Until I know you'll understand
And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say I Love You and you're not listening
And how long can we keep this up up up?....
And I keep waiting
For you to take meeee
You keep waiting ey ey ey
To save what we have
So I make sure to keep my distance
Say I Love You and you're not listening
And how long can we keep this up up up?
Make sure keep my distance
Say I Love You and you're not listening
How long till we call this love love love
My love for sofian still not an ending... but surely... I will keep my distance for his safety...
Love him so much till this heart wanna burst when I saw that wall post.
But I guess I am just too sensitive... But I'll understand...
The sun is filling up the room
And I can hear you dreaming
Do you feel the way I do
Right now
I was feel I just give up
Cause the best part just falling
Call it anything but love
And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say I Love You and you are not listening
And how long can we keep this up up up?...
Please don't stand so close to me
Having trouble breathing
I am afraid of what you'll see
Right now
I give you everything I am
All my broken heart beats
Until I know you'll understand
And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say I Love You and you're not listening
And how long can we keep this up up up?....
And I keep waiting
For you to take meeee
You keep waiting ey ey ey
To save what we have
So I make sure to keep my distance
Say I Love You and you're not listening
And how long can we keep this up up up?
Make sure keep my distance
Say I Love You and you're not listening
How long till we call this love love love
My love for sofian still not an ending... but surely... I will keep my distance for his safety...
Love him so much till this heart wanna burst when I saw that wall post.
But I guess I am just too sensitive... But I'll understand...
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Something Bout Love
Something 'bout love, love
Something 'bout love, love
Every night
it's all the same
You're frozen by the phone
You wait, something's changed
You blame yourself every day
You do it again every night
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, it sets you free
There's something 'bout love that tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh, you still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, but don't give up
There's something 'bout love
When you were young, scared of the night
Waiting for love to come along and make it right
Your day will come, the past is gone
So take your time and live and let live
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, it sets you free
There's something 'bout love that tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh, you still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, but don't give up
There's something 'bout love
Don't fight, don't hide those stars in your eyes
Let em' shine tonight
Let em' shine tonight
Hang on, hang in for the ride of your life It's gonna be alright
Hold on tight
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, it sets you free
There's something 'bout love that tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh, you still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, but don't give up
There's something 'bout love
Whoa oh oh oh, sets you free
There's something bout love that tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh, you still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, but don't give up
There's something 'bout love
Something 'bout love, love
Every night
it's all the same
You're frozen by the phone
You wait, something's changed
You blame yourself every day
You do it again every night
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, it sets you free
There's something 'bout love that tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh, you still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, but don't give up
There's something 'bout love
When you were young, scared of the night
Waiting for love to come along and make it right
Your day will come, the past is gone
So take your time and live and let live
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, it sets you free
There's something 'bout love that tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh, you still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, but don't give up
There's something 'bout love
Don't fight, don't hide those stars in your eyes
Let em' shine tonight
Let em' shine tonight
Hang on, hang in for the ride of your life It's gonna be alright
Hold on tight
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, it sets you free
There's something 'bout love that tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh, you still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, but don't give up
There's something 'bout love
Whoa oh oh oh, sets you free
There's something bout love that tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh, you still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh, but don't give up
There's something 'bout love
FEARS
I think that lil word is the word that comes into my heart... Now
I cannot think about anything than those comments...
I think I am slumber into emptiness from the times now come forwards
I cannot think about anything than those comments...
I think I am slumber into emptiness from the times now come forwards
Monday, October 8, 2012
INI ITU DIA AKU KAMU dan CINTA
Hari ini well... aku hanya bisa terus mengamati berbagai macam hal yang terjadi di depan mataku...
aku hanya bisa menatap segalanya dengan pandangan abu-abu. terkesan lucu mungkin bagi banyak orang, terkesan bukan masalah yang terlalu penting untung sekedar dibicarakan.
Namun... karena hari ini juga... mungkin hatiku... jiwaku... sudah perlahan-lahan redup tanpa ada bekas lagi... mungkin jika ini berlanjut hanya akan tersisa pikiran dan badanku saja untuk belajar dan terus belajar... mendapat prestasi tertinggi lulus kuliah... kerja dan kerja... hingga suatu saat menjadi bhikkhu mungkin... di waktu ini saja... itu tidak bisa mengisi hatiku yang kosong dan dia hanya menjadikanku sebagai bahan candaan... aku... bahkan menganggap diriku sudah pesimist untuk menang. kamu yang ingin menolongku sudah hampir tertutup cinta ku oleh segala permasalah yang ada... dan kamu tidak pernah ada di sampingku... atau mungkin aku yang sudah dibutakan...
Sekarang. sofian... hahaha... mungkin pada saat hari ke 200 hatiku ada kemungkinan sudah benar2 mati. dan pada saat itu apakah aku sudah mendapatkan hal yang kuinginkan... lucu dan terdengar sangat renyah di telinga kenyataan bahwa belum 200 hari dan semangat juangku tidak berada di angka 100 lagi namun berada di angka 2... yah 2.. lols.. aku masih belum menemukan alasan aku untuk menemukan lagi kebahagiaanku. toh, selama ini hanya ada masalah, kerjaan, kerjaan, tugas dan lain2 yang terus melanda GO... hahaha... Go mungkin berdiri sebagai batu karang yang tegar... dengan segala kelembutan GO terlihat GO adalah manusia lembek, namun satu hal... saking kuatnya aku hingga sekarang aku bisa percaya akan hidup yang terus berputar... namun... tanpa cinta... apakah roda kehidupan akan terputar. apakah janji akan disimpul dan hidup dianyam dari selembar sutra compang camping yang telah kumal dan bernoda?
Adakah lelaki yang mau dengan kain gombal murahan yang memiliki jiwa sepudar kertas kusut bekas cabikan manusia...? adakah? Perasaaan tidak pernah bisa dibohongi. sejauh apapun aku berlari dari kenyataan aku adalah penyuka sesama jenis... :-) semakin aku terkekang dalam penjara yang bahkan sebenarnya aku tidak tahu yang mana... hahaah ironis... dan untuk malam ini... aku hanya bisa menyerah duduk tanpa ekspresi di depan laptop... memikirkan... well "NOTHING"
SIAPAPUN by Go, Darmadi Unjaya
Semerah darah segar mengalir ke dalam tubuh
Sehitam awan malam di perbatasan
Sedingin jarum penusuk tulang di dalam hatiku
Serapuh sumsum seribu menggeregoti jiwaku
Hanya ingin bilang aku menyayangimu
namun ku hanya diam dan melihat
Hanya ingin bilang aku mencintaimu
namun ku hanya memandang dan terduduk dalam kebisuan
Senyummu... indah bagaikan surya bersinar di tengah kelamnya malam
Keringatmu tersinari matahari memberi arti perjuangan keras dalam hidup yang tangguh
Namun bibir ini hanya bisa diam dan terpaku tanpa bisa berkata aku ingin jadi milikmu
Yah... aku telah menjadi milikmu... kata itu... kata yang terbuang karena bisu datang...
Dan sekali lagi... aku hanyalah... Siapapun...
aku hanya bisa menatap segalanya dengan pandangan abu-abu. terkesan lucu mungkin bagi banyak orang, terkesan bukan masalah yang terlalu penting untung sekedar dibicarakan.
Namun... karena hari ini juga... mungkin hatiku... jiwaku... sudah perlahan-lahan redup tanpa ada bekas lagi... mungkin jika ini berlanjut hanya akan tersisa pikiran dan badanku saja untuk belajar dan terus belajar... mendapat prestasi tertinggi lulus kuliah... kerja dan kerja... hingga suatu saat menjadi bhikkhu mungkin... di waktu ini saja... itu tidak bisa mengisi hatiku yang kosong dan dia hanya menjadikanku sebagai bahan candaan... aku... bahkan menganggap diriku sudah pesimist untuk menang. kamu yang ingin menolongku sudah hampir tertutup cinta ku oleh segala permasalah yang ada... dan kamu tidak pernah ada di sampingku... atau mungkin aku yang sudah dibutakan...
Sekarang. sofian... hahaha... mungkin pada saat hari ke 200 hatiku ada kemungkinan sudah benar2 mati. dan pada saat itu apakah aku sudah mendapatkan hal yang kuinginkan... lucu dan terdengar sangat renyah di telinga kenyataan bahwa belum 200 hari dan semangat juangku tidak berada di angka 100 lagi namun berada di angka 2... yah 2.. lols.. aku masih belum menemukan alasan aku untuk menemukan lagi kebahagiaanku. toh, selama ini hanya ada masalah, kerjaan, kerjaan, tugas dan lain2 yang terus melanda GO... hahaha... Go mungkin berdiri sebagai batu karang yang tegar... dengan segala kelembutan GO terlihat GO adalah manusia lembek, namun satu hal... saking kuatnya aku hingga sekarang aku bisa percaya akan hidup yang terus berputar... namun... tanpa cinta... apakah roda kehidupan akan terputar. apakah janji akan disimpul dan hidup dianyam dari selembar sutra compang camping yang telah kumal dan bernoda?
Adakah lelaki yang mau dengan kain gombal murahan yang memiliki jiwa sepudar kertas kusut bekas cabikan manusia...? adakah? Perasaaan tidak pernah bisa dibohongi. sejauh apapun aku berlari dari kenyataan aku adalah penyuka sesama jenis... :-) semakin aku terkekang dalam penjara yang bahkan sebenarnya aku tidak tahu yang mana... hahaah ironis... dan untuk malam ini... aku hanya bisa menyerah duduk tanpa ekspresi di depan laptop... memikirkan... well "NOTHING"
SIAPAPUN by Go, Darmadi Unjaya
Semerah darah segar mengalir ke dalam tubuh
Sehitam awan malam di perbatasan
Sedingin jarum penusuk tulang di dalam hatiku
Serapuh sumsum seribu menggeregoti jiwaku
Hanya ingin bilang aku menyayangimu
namun ku hanya diam dan melihat
Hanya ingin bilang aku mencintaimu
namun ku hanya memandang dan terduduk dalam kebisuan
Senyummu... indah bagaikan surya bersinar di tengah kelamnya malam
Keringatmu tersinari matahari memberi arti perjuangan keras dalam hidup yang tangguh
Namun bibir ini hanya bisa diam dan terpaku tanpa bisa berkata aku ingin jadi milikmu
Yah... aku telah menjadi milikmu... kata itu... kata yang terbuang karena bisu datang...
Dan sekali lagi... aku hanyalah... Siapapun...
Friday, October 5, 2012
Love Quotes from Video
This might be a little awkward... but yeah
I found this at one of youtube videos... Check it out
Gay Love Quotations
or might be mine now to Sofi
You are what I never knew that I always wanted
You were given
Two legs to walk
Two hands to hold
Two eyes to see
Two ears to listen
But why only one heart
Because the other one was given to someone else
For you to find
When death to either shall come
I pray it be First to me
When you(I) are(am) in love
You(I) can't fall asleep
Because reality is better than your(my) dreams
When I saw you
I fell in love
And you smiled because you knew
To the world you may be one person
but to one person(me) you may be the world
The night has a thousand eyes
And the day but one
Yet the light of the bright world dies with the dying sun
The mind had a thousand eyes
And the heart but one
Yet the light of a whole life dies
When love is done
I love you
Not for what you are
But for what I am when I'm with you
Only fools fall in love
And I guess I'm one of them
Don't say you love me
Unless you mean it
Because I might do something crazy
Like I believe it
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot
Who calls you back when you hung up on him
Who will lie in under the stars and listen to your heartbeat
Or stay awake just to watch you sleep
Wait for the boy you who kissess your forehead
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats
One who constantly reminds you how lucky he is to have you
The one who turns to his friends and says
"That's him(The One 19A)"
I will follow you
And make a heaven out of hell
Then I'll die by your hand
Which I love so well
Listen to no one who tells you how to love
Your love is like no other
And that is what make it beautiful
If I;d to choose between loving you and breathing
I would use my last breath to say I love you
I will hate the man you marry because he is not me
And love him
If he makes you smile
I will hate the woman you marry because she is not me
And love her
If she makes you smile
That is my resolution for today... all the quotations... :-) touched me... And for the bold ones... I meant it for Sofian to respect his decision...
Good Morning and Let me sleep
I found this at one of youtube videos... Check it out
Gay Love Quotations
or might be mine now to Sofi
You are what I never knew that I always wanted
You were given
Two legs to walk
Two hands to hold
Two eyes to see
Two ears to listen
But why only one heart
Because the other one was given to someone else
For you to find
When death to either shall come
I pray it be First to me
When you(I) are(am) in love
You(I) can't fall asleep
Because reality is better than your(my) dreams
When I saw you
I fell in love
And you smiled because you knew
To the world you may be one person
but to one person(me) you may be the world
The night has a thousand eyes
And the day but one
Yet the light of the bright world dies with the dying sun
The mind had a thousand eyes
And the heart but one
Yet the light of a whole life dies
When love is done
I love you
Not for what you are
But for what I am when I'm with you
Only fools fall in love
And I guess I'm one of them
Don't say you love me
Unless you mean it
Because I might do something crazy
Like I believe it
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot
Who calls you back when you hung up on him
Who will lie in under the stars and listen to your heartbeat
Or stay awake just to watch you sleep
Wait for the boy you who kissess your forehead
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats
One who constantly reminds you how lucky he is to have you
The one who turns to his friends and says
"That's him(The One 19A)"
I will follow you
And make a heaven out of hell
Then I'll die by your hand
Which I love so well
Listen to no one who tells you how to love
Your love is like no other
And that is what make it beautiful
If I;d to choose between loving you and breathing
I would use my last breath to say I love you
I will hate the man you marry because he is not me
And love him
If he makes you smile
I will hate the woman you marry because she is not me
And love her
If she makes you smile
That is my resolution for today... all the quotations... :-) touched me... And for the bold ones... I meant it for Sofian to respect his decision...
Good Morning and Let me sleep
Thursday, October 4, 2012
"APAKAH AKU INI PANTAS BUAT DICINTAI ataupun orang-orang sih?"
Ketika aku merasakan amarah dalam dada, sebenarnya adalah aku yang ingin menutupi kesedihan dan ketakutan yang aku rasakan setelah aku dicerca habis-habisan. Tahukah bahwa aku tadi hampir menangis setelah aku dikejutkan oleh suara lantang Bu Monica dosen waliku yang dengan gampangnya mencercaku tanpa alasan yang relevan dengan topik yang sedang aku bahas. Aku ingin berteriak dan menangis saat itu. namun ada Beatrice dan Marchellyn aku jadi tidak ingin menunjukkan wajah jelekku saat menangis... Saat di mako... ada orang yang kusuka dan juga Bu Tania... sekali lagi aku tak kuasa menunjukkan kesedihanku lagi. Jadinya aku hanya menunjukkan amarahku yang menggebu-gebu tanda aku kuat dan tegas dalam menghadapi masalah. Aku sama sekali tidak ingin menyusahkan mereka, apalagi Sofian dan Bu Tania... Hahahaha maybe I am a foolish one... but yeah better that I am hurting than I have to bear to see them hurting. So, tadi bener-bener ada suasana ga enak di mako apalagi pada saat aku lagi aku menjadi orang yang sangat sensitif dan gampang tersinggung. Padahal Sofian hanya berkata dengan nadanya yang biasa, namun kenapa ya aku benar-benar tersinggung dan langsung meninggalkan mako. lagi-lagi... aku membuatnya melihat salah satu bagian diriku yang kelam... ahahahaha muncul tiba-tiba pertanyaan.
"APAKAH AKU INI PANTAS BUAT DICINTAI ataupun orang-orang sih?"
Sedikit demi sedikit aku berpikir... dan yah hanya 1 jawaban yang terngiang hingga sekarang. dan lebih baik aku simpan jawaban itu lekat-lekat di hatiku :-) untuk sekarang :-)
Hari ini... indah sekali.. aku diperbolehkan untuk main mainan di laptopnya ... namun yah sekali lagi... untuk waktu yang sebentar saja :-) :-( hahaahah lols woakaakakk
Udah deh gitu aja... mulai gatel di mako banyak nyamuk soale belum mandi =.=a woakaakakak
CRYSTAL by Go Darmadi Unjaya
Hurt the feeling of a crystal
always be a crack in that place
What I can do?
Maybe smiling and try to make another beautiful carving out from that carve...
Because the inner strength of a people is...
How they make their suffering a new happiness for all and for his love :-)
Love you sofi...
and Love you tooo BU TANIA WIJAYA... lols for being my other half :-)
"APAKAH AKU INI PANTAS BUAT DICINTAI ataupun orang-orang sih?"
Sedikit demi sedikit aku berpikir... dan yah hanya 1 jawaban yang terngiang hingga sekarang. dan lebih baik aku simpan jawaban itu lekat-lekat di hatiku :-) untuk sekarang :-)
Hari ini... indah sekali.. aku diperbolehkan untuk main mainan di laptopnya ... namun yah sekali lagi... untuk waktu yang sebentar saja :-) :-( hahaahah lols woakaakakk
Udah deh gitu aja... mulai gatel di mako banyak nyamuk soale belum mandi =.=a woakaakakak
CRYSTAL by Go Darmadi Unjaya
Hurt the feeling of a crystal
always be a crack in that place
What I can do?
Maybe smiling and try to make another beautiful carving out from that carve...
Because the inner strength of a people is...
How they make their suffering a new happiness for all and for his love :-)
Love you sofi...
and Love you tooo BU TANIA WIJAYA... lols for being my other half :-)
My Dark Side
Kelly Clarkson - Dark Side
There's a place that i know
it's not pretty there and few have ever gone
if i show it to you now
will it make you run away
or will you stay
even if it hurts
even if i try to push you out
will you return?
and remind me who i really am
please remind me who i really am
everybody's got a dark side
do you love me?
can you love mine?
nobody's a picture perfect
but we're worth it
you know that we're worth it
will you love me?
even with my dark side?
like a diamond
from black dust
it's hard to know what can become
If you give up
so don't give up on me
please remind me who i really am
everybody's got a dark side
do you love me?
can you love mine?
nobody's a picture perfect
but we're worth it
you know that we're worth it
will you love me?
even with my dark side?
don't run away
don't run away
just tell me that you will stay
promise me you will stay
\don't run away
\don't run away
just promise me you will stay
promise me you will stay
will you love me? ohh
everybody's got a dark side
do you love me?
can you love mine?
nobody's a picture perfect
but we're worth it
you know that we're worth it
will you love me?
even with my dark side?
There's a place that i know
it's not pretty there and few have ever gone
if i show it to you now
will it make you run away
or will you stay
even if it hurts
even if i try to push you out
will you return?
and remind me who i really am
please remind me who i really am
everybody's got a dark side
do you love me?
can you love mine?
nobody's a picture perfect
but we're worth it
you know that we're worth it
will you love me?
even with my dark side?
like a diamond
from black dust
it's hard to know what can become
If you give up
so don't give up on me
please remind me who i really am
everybody's got a dark side
do you love me?
can you love mine?
nobody's a picture perfect
but we're worth it
you know that we're worth it
will you love me?
even with my dark side?
don't run away
don't run away
just tell me that you will stay
promise me you will stay
\don't run away
\don't run away
just promise me you will stay
promise me you will stay
will you love me? ohh
everybody's got a dark side
do you love me?
can you love mine?
nobody's a picture perfect
but we're worth it
you know that we're worth it
will you love me?
even with my dark side?
:-) LEMON TREE :-)
I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder
I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder
I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree
I'm sitting here
I miss the power
I'd like to go out taking a shower
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired
Put myself into bed
While nothing ever happens and I wonder
Isolation is not good for me
Isolation I don't want to sit on the lemon-tree
I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder
I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
And I wonder, wonder
I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see, and all that I can see, and all that I can see
Is just a yellow lemon-tree
I think this is what I feel now... but yeah since I am doing it for free and not gonna as for compensation in my love life... I can only smile for this morning. taught me lots of things about trust, about nature,
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder
I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder
I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree
I'm sitting here
I miss the power
I'd like to go out taking a shower
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired
Put myself into bed
While nothing ever happens and I wonder
Isolation is not good for me
Isolation I don't want to sit on the lemon-tree
I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder
I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
And I wonder, wonder
I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see, and all that I can see, and all that I can see
Is just a yellow lemon-tree
I think this is what I feel now... but yeah since I am doing it for free and not gonna as for compensation in my love life... I can only smile for this morning. taught me lots of things about trust, about nature,
Thursday, September 27, 2012
WORTHY?
ANGER is Life
LIFE is Melody
Melody is Temptation
Temptation is Killer
Killer is inside your heart
Your Heart Deploy Things that called Malice
Malice can help you to get out from suffering
Suffering that help you to get your future
To the bring of darkness Consuming your virtues
BEWARE !!!
DON't Let your anger break through
Let it pass what you call river of forgiveness
LOVE YOU
LOVE
SEIZE THE DAY
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
All of you
HEART By: Go Darmadi Unjaya
Blended with darkness
You pull the trigger to love you
An idea of raping... seems so funny
But yeah. your free to talk policy
That's why I admire you so much
And your words that day...
Make me love you so much...
And keeping my hope high even I know when...
Falling is dying.
But Love.. can save me... from death penalty
And that is YOU
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Alone is... :-) :-) :-)
MY FEELING in MAKO by Go Darmadi Unjaya
Poignant in the sky as the colorful juvenile child
Scrambling as the part of its own heart break
Wanna scream but get ahold with lots of trouble in my head.
To say I love you and to hear that you love me...
Seems my greatest hope for my love life
I cannot keep up with this lie to be stronger than everyone else
Regardless as a rainbow that will comes to an end someday
Hoping that hold your hand forever in my chest is the last.
Sitting with this kind of loneliness only give my tears flow in the sky
Everyday I am smiling to you but crying to my other faces...
Screaming deep down in my heart that I LOVE YOU
Damn hell I am so fed up with this turmoil
BUT
I know that I am belong to you NOW...
You can say this only a crush or star crossed love
I only hope you accept me someday... and it will be different.
SOMEDAY...
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
JEALOUSY and IRONY and SURE
It was about many things that come around in my life just today... lols
It was a beautiful morning after the shadow passing by from my life...
I can see my sunshine of love today in the barracks for the future academia milliteria Scholastia
it was a nice morning to watch and see him do lots of things since morning... very dilligent that's what I can say... saturday's task... he do it today... so wonderful... I get lots of smile when he is around...
It was a
It was a beautiful morning after the shadow passing by from my life...
I can see my sunshine of love today in the barracks for the future academia milliteria Scholastia
it was a nice morning to watch and see him do lots of things since morning... very dilligent that's what I can say... saturday's task... he do it today... so wonderful... I get lots of smile when he is around...
It was a
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Malam ini Malam Terindah
Guys... yeah... banyak banget tugas hari ini... penat banget hari-hari ini... namun... hari ini tepatnya malam ini aku berangkat dengan mengenakan baju rapi memakai jas... menunggu agak lama untuk dijemput 19A. yah saat melihat dia dengan mobilnya yang sexy...(plus dia juga sexy). aku hanya bisa bilang bahwa... lagi-lagi hatiku tak mau diam bersorak sorai di dalam dada. perjalanan yang cukup panjang menjemput sodaraku sekaligus seniorku. bercanda di dalam mobil dan terus tertawa... yah... sampai di tempat melihatnya memakai jas... benar-benar.. menarik hati... dan entah kenapa saat melihatnya dengan bu Val... hati bagai teriris karena aku tahu... lebih cocok dia berada di samping sofi... hahaha... rupanya aku masih bisa merasakan minder seperti itu... cuman aku juga ga mau menyerah.. aku sudah berkomitmen 200 hari aku akan berubah... aku ga akan menodai diriku lagi dengan lakuin se* bebas or lots of things that can make I am not worthy... aku butuh waktu untuk menguatkan diriku untuk akhirnya menyatakan perasaan ini...Perasaan untuk saudaraku yang juga menjadi orang yang telah mengisi hatiku... dulu... sekarang... dan selamanya...
DEBU CINTA ANGIN by Go Darmadi Unjaya 4 Sofian
Saat debu bergelutan dengan sang angin
Angin kan menerbangkan debu hingga debu tak kuasa
Tak kuasa debu mengontrol dirinya karena sudah ada angin
Angin yang merengkuh dia dalam dekapan erat sulit tuk dilawan
Debu selalu berharap suatu saat rengkuhan itu akan menjadi genggaman
Tangan halus berurat milik angin yang akan selalu menggenggam tangan debu
Hingga terjadi angi ributpun sekarang Debu akan selalu berada bersama angin
karena... bagi debu... Angin adalah... Cinta suci milik debu...
tak peduli debu akan diterbangkan atau diombang ambingkan... yang terpenting adalah...
DEBU CINTA ANGIN...
DEBU CINTA ANGIN by Go Darmadi Unjaya 4 Sofian
Saat debu bergelutan dengan sang angin
Angin kan menerbangkan debu hingga debu tak kuasa
Tak kuasa debu mengontrol dirinya karena sudah ada angin
Angin yang merengkuh dia dalam dekapan erat sulit tuk dilawan
Debu selalu berharap suatu saat rengkuhan itu akan menjadi genggaman
Tangan halus berurat milik angin yang akan selalu menggenggam tangan debu
Hingga terjadi angi ributpun sekarang Debu akan selalu berada bersama angin
karena... bagi debu... Angin adalah... Cinta suci milik debu...
tak peduli debu akan diterbangkan atau diombang ambingkan... yang terpenting adalah...
DEBU CINTA ANGIN...
Thursday, September 6, 2012
Keluarga yang Indah =>"sampai kapan kamu mau nunggu orang itu"
Dari judulnya pasti banyak dari kalian yang mikir... iih jadul and cliche banget sih ini judul... welll tapi karena aku emang mau dedikasikan tulisan ini untuk keluarga yang baik dan indah menurutku... well sudah 2 hari ini masalah ternyata sangat2 menyukaiku sehingga sering banget mampir dan menyentuh hidupku bukan hany sekali atau dua kali dalam sehari namun berkali-kali.... terus aku tertekan dan sakit... tapiiiii setelah bangun tadi jam 1.36 pagi. baru langsung aku nyadar... buat apa juga gitu tertekan karena masalah apalagi kalau kita punya sebuah keluarga yang membuat kita jadi lebih baik. walaupun sakit kepalaku masih belum sembuh dan masih saja batuk pilek merajalela, perhatian keluarga keluargaku diluar keluarga asliku bener-bener udah memberikan suatu pencerahan bagi diriku. apalagi setelah tahu kenyataan bahwa ko jayus udah ada pacar, dan bermacam2masalah lainnya. sedih? IYALAH pasti sedih. secara loe tahu kalo orang yang loe idam-idamkan udah ada pacar dan jadinya agak sulit buat dia putus and jadi pacar loe(alias ga mungkin) terlebih lagi tempat dia di GuangZhou dan loe di Surabaya... lols ya ya ya aku mulai sadar atas penantianku yang agak-agak aneh tentang orang in... seakan-akan terhipnotis... namun... kata-kata dari seseorang kemaren siang membuat aku (KAYAKNYA nih) tersadarkan.. hingga aku update status di FB "sebenarnya penantianku ini sia-sia atau bermanfaat sih?". Dia berkata : sampe kapan kamu mau nunggu orang itu? ya kontan gw langsung noleh ke arah dia dan nanya... what did you just said? lols woakakaka walaupun aku denger jelas tapi aku pengen aja mastiin... lols dan saat itu ada satu tempat di hati yang keknya bergetar... emang awal pernah suka ama ni orang. cuman menyerah karena perbedaan yang terlampau jauh antara aku dan dia... lols tapi kalau sering ketemu dan sering interaksi dengan dia... bisa2 aku jatuh lebih dalamTT... aku ngerti ada banyak kemungkinan dia bisa bilang gitu. namun bisa ga sih aku mempercayai bahwa ternyata ada sedikit kecemburuan dari dia yang mengatakan bahwa aku suruh cepet2 move on dan buka hati buat dia)seperti yang dikatakan mommy novi ke aku lewat sms... cuman yah mengharapkan orang yang dimata orang biasa2 saja udah ga diterima... masak mengharapkan orang yang lebih sempurna dari orang biasa? hufff ckckck gw harapannya ketinggian.. cuman bener ga sih keputusan gw untuk move on sekarang? yaaah... let us see deh besok bagaimana... lols... tiba2 aja denger lagu cover tiffany alvord and boyce avenue => She will be loved. so kesimpulannya buat ibu menwa yang sudah mendengar curhatku... pasti dia akan dicintai oleh orang yang tepat dan untuk selama-lamanya. sorry ya guys and bloggers kalo aku ceritanya lompat-lompat... lagi agak ga enak badan jadi pikiran pun lompat2 ga jelas waakaaaka... lols dan yah sekarang jam 3.32, 2 jam setelah aku terbangun dan tiba2 saja aku memikirkan dia lagi... walau pastinya aku mikirin banyak hal yang somehow pressuring... huff... This is my feeling, so what about yours?
NB : yep his name is sofian again... lols
Special thanks today for Valencia Angela and Sofian who made my day brighter and healthier
KAli ini ada puisi buat readers... lols semoga bermanfaat
Broken wings up to the sky
Never fly never fall WHY?
Knowing my hope is a lie
It will only be the matter of a time.
but Rising from the fall is the goal
again waiting but learning too
as yesterday will not be today.
your face in my thoughts just like an ecstasy
Running from the past solve nothing
but let him be the 41st man can make a change
even it is futile it still a progress
and when you hope... goal can be reached
Never believe in love but believe in your life to love that is worth to you to love.
Love him like you love yourself...
PF 05/09/2012 saat sofian tiba2 nyeletuk something yang bahkan aku sendiri ga nyangka dia bisa bilang kek gitu namun... yah... tunggu waktunya aja deh
NB : yep his name is sofian again... lols
Special thanks today for Valencia Angela and Sofian who made my day brighter and healthier
KAli ini ada puisi buat readers... lols semoga bermanfaat
Broken wings up to the sky
Never fly never fall WHY?
Knowing my hope is a lie
It will only be the matter of a time.
but Rising from the fall is the goal
again waiting but learning too
as yesterday will not be today.
your face in my thoughts just like an ecstasy
Running from the past solve nothing
but let him be the 41st man can make a change
even it is futile it still a progress
and when you hope... goal can be reached
Never believe in love but believe in your life to love that is worth to you to love.
Love him like you love yourself...
PF 05/09/2012 saat sofian tiba2 nyeletuk something yang bahkan aku sendiri ga nyangka dia bisa bilang kek gitu namun... yah... tunggu waktunya aja deh
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
PENDEWASAAN
You shout it loud,
but I can't hear a word you say
I'm talking loud, not saying much
I'm criticized, but all your bullets ricochet
you shoot me down, but I get up
I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
fire away, fire away ricochet,
you take your aim
fire away, fire away
you shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
you shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
Cut me down, but it's you who'll have further to fall
Ghost town and haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I'm talking loud, not saying much
I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
fire away, fire away ricochet,
you take your aim fire away, fire away [ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/titanium-lyrics-david-guetta.html ] you shoot me down, but I won't fall I am titanium you shoot me down, but I won't fall I am titanium
I am titanium
I am titanium
Stone hard, machine gun
Fired at the ones who run
Stone hard, as bulletproof glass
You shoot me down, but I won't fall I am titanium You shoot me down, but I won't fall I am titanium You shoot me down, but I won't fall I am titanium You shoot me down, but I won't fall I am titanium
I am titanium
but I can't hear a word you say
I'm talking loud, not saying much
I'm criticized, but all your bullets ricochet
you shoot me down, but I get up
I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
fire away, fire away ricochet,
you take your aim
fire away, fire away
you shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
you shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
Cut me down, but it's you who'll have further to fall
Ghost town and haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I'm talking loud, not saying much
I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
fire away, fire away ricochet,
you take your aim fire away, fire away [ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/titanium-lyrics-david-guetta.html ] you shoot me down, but I won't fall I am titanium you shoot me down, but I won't fall I am titanium
I am titanium
I am titanium
Stone hard, machine gun
Fired at the ones who run
Stone hard, as bulletproof glass
You shoot me down, but I won't fall I am titanium You shoot me down, but I won't fall I am titanium You shoot me down, but I won't fall I am titanium You shoot me down, but I won't fall I am titanium
I am titanium
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Many Things Happen... Good or Bad?
This morning I have so much troubles when I just woke up... still really don't understand the situation that occurred today. aku ga tahu mau bilang apa... hahaah... kemarin aku bertemu dengan teman lama yang sudah lama ga kutemui dari sebulan lalu... dan yah pastinya akan diketahui pada saat itu terjadi kegiatan yang sudah sering terjadi hingga sekarang... another one night stand revelation that somehow made me charmed that night. I know lots of things happened... but this morning... WOW... my friend broke up with her boyfriend, my bff get sick and somehow I am not feeling well either...
tapi satu hal yang aku pelajari adalah dimanapun dan kapanpun kita dirundung banyak masalah, stay calm dan beristirahatlah sambil tersenyum supaya kita bisa berpkiran jernih terlebih dahulu dan mengutaki masalah sehingga sedikit demi sedikit segala masalah dapat diseleseikan.
Kemaren aku mendapati informasi bahwa ko jayus sudah memiliki pacar... hahahaha sedikitnya karena aku orang gay yang normal... pasti agak kecewa dan menangis di dalam hati namun... apakah seperti itu yang seharusnya kulakukan? NGGAK JUGA... harusnya... aku seneng kalo ko jayus bisa mendapatkan satu orang yang dapat merawat dan mencintai dia juga di dunia ini... dan jauh lebih baik seperti itu. namun entah kenapa aku masih mengharapkan ko jayus yah.. mungkin aku lebih menunggu hingga nanti akan ada yang mencuri hatiku lagi... namun pasti ada yang rasanya jenuh di dunia ini... masih saja belum ada cinta yang menemukan diriku serta mengajak aku untuk mencinta lagi. aku bosan aku jenuh aku kesepian. namun apa daya aku bisa buat... Namun sekarang aku sadar...
JIKA KAMU INGINKAN ORANG YANG LAYAK... BUAT DIRIMU LAYAK UNTUK ORANG TERSEBUT. itu lah yang bener2 aku pegang.... aku belajar aku ng gym, aku berlatih untuk terus menjadi orang yang lebih baik day by day....
Guys.... percaya deh... saat kita masih belum punya pacar itu maksudnya bukan kita ga laku... namun belum laku. bukan ga layak namun belum layak untuk didapatkan oleh orang yang kita harapkan. jadi daripada kita mengejar orang yang layak. JADILAH orang yang layak supaya nantinya kita akan dicari atau ditemukan oleh sesama orang layak... hahaha... lucu dan agak contradictive but... this is the real thing of life... kalo kita sendiri aja ga bisa dibentuk... sapa yang mau kita bentuk... so WORLD... SHAPE ME as GOOD as I HAVE TO BE... lols
1 Poem
LESSON OF LIFE by Go,Darmadi Unjaya
There is no ending
There is no beginning
Because Ending is the beginning
and Beginning is an ending
When you just got split up
means you have another possibilities to be with another one
When you still single...
Means you still need to deploy more time and quality in yourself
So just walk away and go straight ahead
Never intend to destroy yourself
but love yourself more with a consideration
Love to give the best in your life
tapi satu hal yang aku pelajari adalah dimanapun dan kapanpun kita dirundung banyak masalah, stay calm dan beristirahatlah sambil tersenyum supaya kita bisa berpkiran jernih terlebih dahulu dan mengutaki masalah sehingga sedikit demi sedikit segala masalah dapat diseleseikan.
Kemaren aku mendapati informasi bahwa ko jayus sudah memiliki pacar... hahahaha sedikitnya karena aku orang gay yang normal... pasti agak kecewa dan menangis di dalam hati namun... apakah seperti itu yang seharusnya kulakukan? NGGAK JUGA... harusnya... aku seneng kalo ko jayus bisa mendapatkan satu orang yang dapat merawat dan mencintai dia juga di dunia ini... dan jauh lebih baik seperti itu. namun entah kenapa aku masih mengharapkan ko jayus yah.. mungkin aku lebih menunggu hingga nanti akan ada yang mencuri hatiku lagi... namun pasti ada yang rasanya jenuh di dunia ini... masih saja belum ada cinta yang menemukan diriku serta mengajak aku untuk mencinta lagi. aku bosan aku jenuh aku kesepian. namun apa daya aku bisa buat... Namun sekarang aku sadar...
JIKA KAMU INGINKAN ORANG YANG LAYAK... BUAT DIRIMU LAYAK UNTUK ORANG TERSEBUT. itu lah yang bener2 aku pegang.... aku belajar aku ng gym, aku berlatih untuk terus menjadi orang yang lebih baik day by day....
Guys.... percaya deh... saat kita masih belum punya pacar itu maksudnya bukan kita ga laku... namun belum laku. bukan ga layak namun belum layak untuk didapatkan oleh orang yang kita harapkan. jadi daripada kita mengejar orang yang layak. JADILAH orang yang layak supaya nantinya kita akan dicari atau ditemukan oleh sesama orang layak... hahaha... lucu dan agak contradictive but... this is the real thing of life... kalo kita sendiri aja ga bisa dibentuk... sapa yang mau kita bentuk... so WORLD... SHAPE ME as GOOD as I HAVE TO BE... lols
1 Poem
LESSON OF LIFE by Go,Darmadi Unjaya
There is no ending
There is no beginning
Because Ending is the beginning
and Beginning is an ending
When you just got split up
means you have another possibilities to be with another one
When you still single...
Means you still need to deploy more time and quality in yourself
So just walk away and go straight ahead
Never intend to destroy yourself
but love yourself more with a consideration
Love to give the best in your life
Monday, September 3, 2012
Di Dunia Penuh Ragam Cinta
I might be already knew the story of “You are the apple of
my eye” but when I watched It from the beginning… It can only amazed me in
every second it told me about a little thing called love that has another
perspective in keeping a line between a person you chase for more that 1 or 2
years… 11 years chasing only one girl and yeah in the end… that girl still
marry another man but you can still can smile to her and bless her with all
love you can… Somehow.. I am so touched by the sweetness of That man… That time
I wondered how my love can be deployed into that time when I will get Ko
Jayusman someday as my boyfriend or husband… or maybe… Nobody but another
bestfriend… who knows right… all I can do is only putting my faith and like and
love to him so that someday. Maybe… My love and waiting will be paid off… and
once again… If he is mine to come… just give me more and more test to
strengthen the bond. But if he is not, Let him find the best woman in his life
who can make him happy all his life… and that day too I will bless him… For Ko
Jayus… I know I still keep the feeling but yeah how can I do to make this gone
by accepting if I am still hoping… but yeah… when there is a will there is a
way… someday… hope it will end well ALL IS WELL...
iyu
Baru saja aku mendengar aku mebuliskan judul di atas... aku langsung menulisnya sebagai judul blog ini... lols
Guys hari ini... aku hanya bisa menatap ko jayus di laptop... namun yah itu mungkin jadi obat rindu yang paling mujarab ahaha... lols namun rsa rindu makin kuat... walau orang banyak bilang bahwa ko jayus sudah pasti straight...lols namun apa salahnya berharap untuk segala kemungkinan yang bisa terjadi... aku ingin aku butuh dan aku suka ko jayus... entah kenapa sekrang aku lebih berani untuk menyampaikan isi hatiku di blog ini... aku harap yang membaca juga ga bored with this... cuman yang aku pelajari adalah... aku suka seseorang mungkin dari fisik, hati, dan juga karisma... namun pada saat aku jatuh cinta dan benar2 cinta ko jayus suatu hari nanti... pepatah akan jadi... AKU CINTA KAMU KARENA KAMU ADALAH KAMU bukan yang lain... wahai kau cinta sejatiku
Another poem from me
YOU
Jingling in my heart everyday
As the comet of solemn come to my heart
Youth of the gallant hero and perspective
Utopia in every possibility in this world
Severe thunder will always carved in heart and life
Mais mon amour pour tu est eternal
Avant hier aoujurd'hui et en future
Nothing can make me forget you as you carved your name in my heart
World maybe as cruel as hell or as good as heaven
Irresistible to come yet can be neutralized
Just another love story and I will my world a better one
As the heart come to its decision to love
Year by year Month by month Day by day will make stronger If there is you in my heart
Amore, Ai, Love, Cinta, Amour, Dashuri, حب, սիրել, sevgi, любіць, ভালবাসা, amor,爱, IJUBAV, láska,Kærlighed, Liefde, Liebe, amas, Armastus, Mahalin, Rakkaus, გაცნობები, αγάπη, પ્રેમ, renmen, אהבה, प्यार, szerelem, ást, Grá, amore, ಪ್ರಿಯೆ, 사랑, amare, mīlestība, meilė,imħabba,Kjærlighet,miłość, dragoste, любить, љубав, láska, Ljubezen, upendo, Kärlek, அன்பு, ప్రేమ, ความรัก, aşk, любити, yêu, Cariad, ליבשאַפט. That is all language that I can ask for LOVE
NB : waiting january to come
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