IS IT? ISN'T IT? XD XD XD

Well it has been sometimes now... and somehow i still love him more and more day by day...
The feeling of having him as my Lovely Boyfriend still keep me in the sky
But Relationship will be contaminated with conflicts even you are mature enough to run from it
Mais... That doesn't mean i do not like it... I love it... but somehow the feeling that i cannot talk to another person about my cases makes me so brutal and hurt... hahahaha and that case still get into my life till now...
but looking at him now at 2.19 will never make me break my love... hahaha you can say that lame... but... I love him too much for making things complicated
I think i can rely this feeling to my blog only... and someone... hahahaha... because it seems so great to have a shoulder to rely on... even though i am sick now i still can lift my cases a bit hahahahaah...
He's sleeping like an angel in my life... How much i love him? well you can say... I cannot describe it in number hahahaha... just... I love him
hahahahaa... many things and times we had spent together make me stronger... and learning fast about his characteristic
And the point of today... I will learn to kill my inner senses... that means i don't want to get so sensitive that can make both of us hurt... but... i will do the best to serve him with love and the best that i can do... And my life... hahahaha
some people say that it was childish but i say it "GIVING IT A TRY" so yeah i am maturer everyday when i am with my lovely bear... hahahahaha....
Kyaa... i cannot say anything about him again... i am just too mesmerized
That's it for the day... I am feeling not so well so i have to rest since i do not have a single person to talk hahaha... everyone just thrashed me like an unworthy thing after i get to relationship//
SHIT... this is my sensitivity talking and i learn to control it and someday kill it perfectly...
I WANT THE BEST SO I WILL GIVE THE BEST ALWAYS IN MY LIFE
LOVE LOVE LOVE HURT HURT HURT LOVE SMILE LOVE HURT LOVE SMILE CRY CRY LOVE

Flag Ceremony... and How can i say... broken friendship???

In This special day of Hari Pendidikan Nasional, I bear the duty of commander in party. that's so great and interesting and somehow i did it with the smile and motivation of mine... and everything was ended in a perfect condition... But It is not a balance nature if you only get happy, smiley, Laughey and ETC... hmmm you have to get a negative somehow to become a person who LIVES...
Here's The deal...
Well I get up avec mon copain et moi sourire et toi rire...
J'Taime Son sourire, son visage, toujour.
Mais...
Well again... that thing is about my mouth that can't be shut tightly
Kenapa semua orang mempermasalahkan perkataanku?
Aku bukannya orang yang menjadi whistleblower... aku sama sekali tidak pernah melaporkan kesalahan orang lain tanpa ada sebab2 keadilan atau apapun... selama ini aku hanya berbicara tentang diriku sendiri... aku sama sekali tidak memberikan informasi yang benar2 negatif atau menjatuhkan orang lain... namun orang yang selama ini aku bela... memvonis aku dengan doktrinnya yang mengatakan bahwa mulutku tidak bisa terjaga... somehow... feel so itchy bitchy sometimes... cuman yah mana bisa gua protes.. mereka kan temen2 gue... cuman mungkin setelah ini aku bakal berpikir ulang... Terkadang hidup ini lucu... baru saja mendapat sesuatu yang indah namun sesaat kemudian hal tersebut hancur berkeping-keping hanya karena satu momen yang well kinda awkward but yah you know lah...
Hahahaha... walau mulutku tidak bisa dijaga, aku masih memiliki pemikiran dan konsep kan? Jadi, kenapa harus diurusi oleh orang yang bahkan dia sendiri bukan keluargaku, bukan pacarku, bukan teman SANGAT baik ku... namun mereka seakan-akan tahu bahwa aku dari a hingga akhir adalah... JELEK...

Oke... terkadang emang sisi jelekku keluar sepertis sekrang dengan kata penuh tampar dan sindiran...
Tapi aku lebih benar-benar OPEN to perubahan dan definitely... AQ berani berkata di depan orang langsung untuk memperingatkan seseorang daripada hanya memperingatkan dari belakang seakan-akan aku adalah penjahat... XD XD XD... well somehow... THEY THINK THEY KNOW ME BECAUSE THEY CHAT WITH ME... BUT THEY NEVER KNOW WHAT INSIDE MY HEART AND MY INTEGRITY IS... so JUST SHUT UP SOMEHOW AND NEVER JUDGE or you will be judge even bitter than you JUDGE me... because there is a lot thing i don't flooring up to everybody about you GUYS...
And since this is my love life you are getting into... somehow... i have to have defense mechanism...
You maybe great in debate or what... but without action... means nothing and yeah... i know lot of things... about you too that i still care... (SO siapa yang 'nda bisa jaga mulut')