IT GETS BETTER

Intine... Ga mudeng mbe cerita ini film... cuman... karena 1 jam kemudian ada kejadian yang benar2 memberikanku sebuah pengertian mengenai... IT GETS BETTER.... hehehe ini akan menjadi lebih baik.. and now I believe that... masalah kemaren tiba-tiba saja aku harus bayar urunan dan uang PKU yang membuat 80 rbu ku ludes dalam sehari... well it was only a tiny bit money for everyone... but it can be a dire money for people who lives in a boarding house with no foods in it... Hahahahha
singkat cerita... setelah aku melihat film ini... temenku menelpon... dan yah... pada saat aku masih kebingungan tentang akhir film yang well kinda ga jelas menurutku karena subtitlenya sendiri agak aneh neh neh... namun ketika aku mempertanyakan ketidakjelasan itu pada dunia, aku langsung diberi suatu problem yang membuat aku sekarang mengerti akan film tersebut. menceritakan tentang kehidupan transsexual seorang lelaki bernama Ding, dari awal sejak kematian ibunya hingga akhirnya ia menjadi seorang transgender setelah menjadi ayah dari seorang pemuda tampan yang akhirnya juga menjadi gay... namun memiliki akhir yang mengenaskan karena harus wafat melindungi sang ayah tercintanya dari tembakan yang akan dilancarkan oleh perampok keji tak berperasaa (wong ngrampok yo ngrampok wong tuwek ga berdaya, ngrampok yo ngrampok bank to yo geblek geblek... so sad soale TT) ditutup dengan penebaran abu ding yang kinda sweet but sad... karena di sana lah... cinta akan terus abadi dalam kenangan mereka... dalam kenangan ayah, anak dan pacar lelakinya...

Hal ini... dapat aku mengerti setelah aku mengantarkan teman baikku ke apotek untuk membeli obat... dan dalam proses inilah aku belajar untuk mengandalkan orang lain... dan aku berterima kasih karena lelaki yang sekarang sudah benar-benar aku anggap kokoku(dari suka jadi saudara... kinda complicated but comfy now) yang bela2in jam 11 malem aku call dan dia jawab serta ngebantu aku ampe tuntas... serta buat temenku yang sudah bantu dengan pengetahuannya tentang penyakit dan obat-obatan. I just hope she will be alright lah... and I know... you will be my BFF... lols

Hahahahahaha dari situlah blog buddies... aku merasa bahwa hidup akan selalu menjadi lebih baik... termasuk kemaren yang aku ampe kelaperan ga ada makanan karena uang belum dikirim ama papa... eh ternyata hari ini setelah latihan upacara.... papa datang dan memberikan aku uang yang bisa buat makan... that's kinda really really sweet of life.... dan bener sekali bahwa patient will bring us to another level of thinking...


Ini lagu yang aku kinda karang pada saat perjalanan pulang aku dari Circle K setelah nganter temenku

It Gets Better by Go Darmadi Unjaya

I will hold you in my hand
across the street on the land
Looking up the night sky
Staring at the star so high
Hey dear it is not a problem
It always gets better by the time comes by
with you hold my hand
and put your trust in me...
I will never let you down...
running from and let you drown
I will give you smile... tear but not a river
If Okay is a sand you are the beach
If Okay is one hand... you are my body
If Okay is a drop of water... you are the ocean
If Okay is like... You is my love
and LIFE

Remembering Old times Mama Papa Cece => Insomnia

Hey bloggers... long time not update this blog...
well now it's 6.12 in the morning. I am not sleeping yet of course because I still type my journey with listening to Carrie Underwood's song that always touch my heart... Mama's Song...
Well guys... my life still the same as my life months ago... lonely without a boyfriend... Hehehe... but The update is... I have so many friends and activities that keep me busy and free from sex.... lols hope the effects will be soon permanent so I get my freedom again... hahaha... my feelings now... kinda mild but still warm for loving more and more as the people in my life always change to a better quantity and of course quality... Hemm... lols dunno what to say bloggy...

I like sofi, I like GW, I like Tji... huff I've been liking so much person till now... and I think yeah... I am so greedy... but I know in the end. they are not meant for me... even one name... lols... because... They love girls and I like them hahahaha... lols so... again I let the wind flew me higher than the sky... so I can get one extraordinary choice in the end of my journey finding love... the time I start my new life with HIM... lols ahahahhaha... have so many experiences guys.... and you know what... I AM SO DAMN BUSY>>>> TT I want to get my free time back... but... I want it this way because I think this is so much fun and relaxing... love the life of mine

I will get into the competition hehehe... lols wish me luck


this is one of my poem

Hancur Ekonomiku by GO DARMADI UNJAYA 33411044 Manajemen Perhotelan UKP
 
Kering kerontang lintang khatulistiwa
Lapuk hancur haluan negara
Resesi inflasi dan korupsi
Pollitik maupun jurang dosa
Jalang kemana pendosa tertawa
Curi sana curi sini
Bunuh rakyat di kiri maupun di kanan
Lapar melanda penghasilan nihil
Haus menyerang tangan lumpuh
Egoisme meninggi mencakar langit
Kemanusiaan hilang dan perekonomian pun menjadi debu.
Tamaknya manusia saling bunuh hanya untuk uang dan properti

Wahai jalang nurani bukalah matamu
Lihat sekelilingmu hanya ada tulang belulang tanda serakah biadabmu
Benarkah ini yang dikata makhluk berpengetahuan
lalu...
Apa bedanya dengan hewan yang saling berebut makan dan kekuasaan?
Uang kaya saling hancur... apa itu tujuan kita?
Tikus-tikus memalukan hanya bisa korupsi
Binatang jalang menginjak harkat dan martabat.
Resesi tahunan melanda mereka tersenyum
Inflasi membuncah mereka tertawa
Korupsi merajalela merekalah raja.
Bayar pajak pun rekayasa belaka.
Krisis pun terjadi mereka hanya terdiam
Namun di balik layar terbahak. 
Wujud ekonomi yang sangat membanggakan dan patut jadi contoh
Contoh durjana setan kelaparan akan uang akan kekayaan.

Bangunlah wahai saudara
Tegakkan tonggak haluan seperti semula
Bangun lagi puing perekonomian
Jadikanlah Indonesia makmur sekali lagi dan selamanya
Lalu berbahagialah anak cucu dapat petik buah manis keringat kita
Perbaiki Resesi Inflasi dan Korupsi
Gapai Indonesia maju berseru KITA BISA!!!

Yellow Shirted Man Sof2

Kinda tired and exhausted tonight after doing lots of things today... finally I can take a rest,,
but update... He's the man that can make me let go of my formality... with the yellow shirt tonight... and he's kinda funny/// huff my face reddish and yeah... if i am not this tired... I will update about him soon...
NB : 1 poem if i cameinto update next time... turu SEK... nguantok... hohohohoho
Sof2

Well the time passed by but I came into my conscious again because the great mosquitoes bit me all over my body and let me drown in pain and itchy bitchy things... hahahaha... I only want to sleep and I got +++ ... so maybe I think I will update this blog for the day... hahaha

The first time I saw him... he was yeah I do not know what to say, he's a charming one, easy to talk to and funny... hahahahha... that man named Sof2 for short(kinda my doing again =.=a to ruin everyone's name TT) he caught my eyes when the first briefing of Menwa taken time and place... just yeah... I think he's cute and bla bla bla you know what I will say about a man that I like ahahaha...

Today I came along and spent lots of times with friends from MU to Menwa... completely with him... Hahahaha... that was the first time I ever can show myself around to a man... that's why I could say that... My heart was finally moved a little... and I hope this will be the first chance for me to get a real man in my life... I do not want to state that I will get into him sooner... but It will be... but again with all of my track records... Hmmmm... But yeah I am sure if it is my karma to get him... he will come into a better understanding too... Guess what... He's a buddhist too... and O MY GAY... it was so cool for me to know... hahahahaha... yeah... I guess it is a link between us from the starts lah...

Today I will be screening officer for my jiefu's graduation ceremony.... Hahha... and yeah with Sof2 too wkwk... lols hemmm... it will be an interesting moment... but yeah insomnia that is taking part now... Haiss... hope it will not affect my day lah yah... I am so damn happy yesterday and will be for today and tomorrow and my days in menwa... hope everything can happen for which I supposed to get... Thank you....

1 POEM for you guys


And yehaa... There is one song that played on my playlist that caught me off guard... I am smiling now...

One Thing by One Direction Copyrighted... by lyrics website
[Liam]
I've tried playing it cool
But when I'm looking at you
I can’t ever be brave
'Cause you make my heart race

[Harry]
Shot me out of the sky
You're my kryptonite
You keep making me weak
Yeah, frozen and can't breathe

[Zayn]
Something’s gotta give now
'Cause I’m dying just to make you see
That I need you here with me now
'Cause you've got that one thing

[All - Chorus]
So get out, get out, get out of my head
And fall into my arms instead
I don't, I don't, don't know what it is
But I need that one thing
And you've got that one thing

[Niall]
Now I'm climbing the walls
But you don't notice at all
That I'm going out of my mind
All day and all night

[Louis-Zayn-Niall]
Something’s gotta give now
'Cause I'm dying just to know your name
And I need you here with me now
'Cause you've got that one thing

[All - Chorus]
So get out, get out, get out of my head
And fall into my arms instead
I don't, I don't, don't know what it is
But I need that one thing

So get out, get out, get out of my mind
And come on, come into my life
I don't, I don't, don't know what it is
But I need that one thing
And you've got that one thing

Woah-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh

[Harry]
You've got that one thing

[Liam]
Get out, get out, get out of my head
And fall into my arms instead

[All - Chorus]
So get out, get out, get out of my head
And fall into my arms instead
I don't, I don't, don't know what it is
But I need that one thing

So get out, get out, get out of my mind (out of my mind)
And come on, come into my life
I don't, I don't, don't know what it is
But I need that one thing
Yeah, you've got that one thing

Well my day was getting so exciting... well in the morning after sex of course I am so tired and the get to sleep until midday. Awoken by the sound of the bell... my friend came over for spending the time together... we have lots of things done and etc etc... hahaha he even get me a breakfast... somehow that's sweet, we spent the time to play RO and having fun... hemmm... but strangely I cannot develop more than just a friendship. So i guess for this time I will be his friend and nothing more than that. Hehehehe... and then.... my life passing by into another special occassion... BBQ ing with lots of friends... for the graduation we made it so special... I still have poems to be done and yosh I will give them the best in my life for their graduation... Hope that my words will touch into their heart... That will be so GREAT... hahahaha.

The night... when the BBQ started...I played Warcraft for the first time with the network and the friends... so happy I can cry... while joking with friends and laughing... somehow I realize something weird about person sitting beside me... heheheh another tingling moment when I sat around beside him.... never really realize it till now... but yeah... LET IT FLOW with ALL IS WELL things lah... I do not need to run for him... but hone my behaviour... heeheh... well now it is 2.21 and I am so tired but I listened to one song and I want to cry.... so I share it with you guys... Hope you guys like it... About our MAMA

Mama's Song

Mama you taught me to do the right things
So now you have to let your baby fly
You've given me everything that I will need
To make it through this crazy thing called life
And I know you watch me grow up and only want whats best for me
And I think I found the answer to your prayers

And he is good, so good
He treats your little girl like a real man should
He is good, so good, he makes promises he keeps
No he's never gonna leave
So dont you worry about me
Dont you worry about me

Mama theres no way you'll ever lose me
And giving me away is not goodbye
As you watch me walk down to my future, I hope tears of joy are in your eyes

Cuz he is good, so good
He treats your little girl like a real man should
He is good, so good, he makes promises he keeps
No he's never gonna leave
So dont you worry about me
Dont you worry about me

And when I watch my little baby grow I'll only want whats best for her
And I hope she'll find the answer to my prayers
And that she'll say

He is good, so good
He treats your little girl like a real man should
He is good, so good, he makes promises he keeps
No he's never gonna leave
So dont you worry about me
Dont you worry about me

Mama dont you worry about me

Dont you worry about me

NB : your eyes shining with your funniest smile

Here's the link...
Mama's Song ---- Carrie Underwood