Hey everyone. long time very very long time not seeing all of you and my blogspot. It is just I am so busy these days and got no inspiration to write in this blog... All of you may know that now i am at my 6th semester going to open my own cafe and hotel... in my campus. hahahaha... so the readers... if you wanna come just come in the april 22nd yeah... I am looking forward to it. hahahaha.... Well what i want to tell you is not that information only. I, again want to tell you about my life in these times...
On december I got so great present for my birthday such as a New Galaxy Mega Phone. and yeah... like it even love it so much.... hahahaah then I get into a committe for STKN in the end of the year. I spent my time with committees and Yeahhh.. it felt so good meeting new friends and a new crush... But later on. he just being a good friend of mine... who supportively supporting me hahahaha....
On January, I just got nothing to do than a holidays... yeah HOLIDAYS guys. finally after many times waiting for returning home. I got the chance... In my house at mojokerto city... I have so many pleasure such as I could spend times with my wonderful families especially in the Chinese new year. I love them so much and always love them... hahahaa I hope that our families will be freed from the IOU... hahaha... lols... I really wish for that.... So that is for January...
On February... In this moment before valentine... I get something to tell you... It will be my lonely valentine but Only for this year ends... because I believe next year... I will be with him... Well this is my story...I knew him for a sites called MJ... I thought he was in Surabaya so I ask him to have a little chat with me... I don't know why he gave me his Pin... at first... I thought it will be just one night stand again and pfft it is over... but yeah... My chat with him just started with a warm welcome in the night... Asking for names and somehow bot of us have unique names... hahaha one is go one is boy... hahahha... We started our talks in that one night... he even combine both of our names as Go Boy... and somehow I felt very close to him... all of my worries just gone and I enjoyed it...We were talking about japan since he was comiing from a mix family lil bit japanese and Bataknese. he told me many things bout him like he is an employee now and yeah many things... hahaha... we talked like crazy that time...At may... he will go to Vietnam. for 5 months... that time I felt like... Oh My God. what can I do to be with him if our distance just get further... but yeah... that time I still not having the problems... He told me something that I will remember the rest of my life... He loves my cheeks. because it is like dumplings...weird but I love it. hahaha... silly but yeah... I like it and thats.. why I like it in the first...I even share my problems with him. and He helped me through my problems...
He worked in Karawang but he lived in Jakarta... and yeah. he shares problems too with me. and i was like. I trust him and he trust me... we talked a lot... well actually I am the one who talked a lot and he just talked a little. but yeah I was okay since... It is like he has known me very well... we shared I dont know. SOME THING... hahahaah...This valentine I ask him to be my valentine... but it is not the time yet. hahahaha since the things that is a great wave will only just come afterwards...
He told me everything I told him everything... but until one day...
What I really remembered... just ... He told me to stop.. stop to not reply his BBM and stop to not end to guard him. And SO I WILL do that for him...
But 2 days ago many things got jumbled and voila my relationship just like downward spiral...
My brother in term... told me that he got a crush on a person... first I know him as nishikawa so yeah it is not my BOY... hahaha... but yeah that sunday... he updated his status and I was just shocked... and somehow... boy's bbm is not active for me to ask the truth. I cried for the thing happened to me... but again the next day I decided to keep fighting for his love... hahaha... then i got deleted by my brother... I still do not know why... but yeah... it is just a story of my life... So for now... I will keep believing BOY even though he is doubting me... I told him my darkest secrets... I will come clean. I will test my health. and yeah... That is for me to be healthy so I can protect MY BOY... forever... Hahahaha.. maybe this is what you called LOVE OR LIKE IS JUST ALIKE... hahahahaha...
Love Pain and Bittersweet are 3 words for you to grab when you are in love
But someone said to me... that Love is happiness and when you love someone means you will fight for every challenges given to both of you... SO I WILL.. :-)
Waiting for 14th... so I can be with you in BBM... I am sorry ya Boy. for not believing. and now I know how it felt to be doubted by you... hahaha. I will gain it again even I have to go to Jakarta or Vietnam
