Time Actually Can Go Backwards

Do you guys what actually makes me happy now?
That is I have found the passion once more to have lots of things in my life.
Lan Kwai Fong 1
The first movie I've watched today taught me that Love can be found anywhere...
In the night club, in the place that people said and me also said that cannot find anything worth than One Night Stand or just a single glance of perfection from men or women we desired. But that actually happened in this movie and taught me a lot about new perspective that "LOVE CAN BE FOUND ANYWHERE BECAUSE YOU MEANT IT." And yeah I know I have been doing my activities again with all about the sex things and hook ups even play with one's heart when I truly love one man in my life. That I was very ashamed and yeah even the film told that second chance is a possible way to redeem yourself from the pain that you have given to your commitment. I believe that everyone deserves a true love. from wherever they should have it. So maybe even my body is being sexed up by lots of people... someday I can find true love that will give me everything that I need to have. and showed me that "Love is based on commitment and promise and I will never walk away from that promise never again".
Lan Kwai Fong 2
More of hot guys more of hot girls... but definitely this is not just a poor sexed up movie for me. Because this movie taught me a lot about this world with the nightlife of it. I learned that differences may take our sincerity to love another not because we love the money but because we are afraid to take chances believing in ourselves that WE CAN DO THE RELATIONSHIP WITH LOVE. Now I know why money is not everything compares to love... because with love you can buy money... but with money you will never buy a single love even the one that love money, cause what they love is your money not you. LOVE IS THE FIRST THING AND THE MONEY IS A BONUS IF YOU ARE MORE FORTUNATE... that is my conclusion. and the best one of my conclusion YOU CAN DO ANYTHING BECAUSE OF LOVE... like in the previous series that the man chase the woman until the crowded streets swearing that they will not drink and not loving another woman other than Jennifer... In this second movie... LOVE CAN MAKE THE TIME TURN BACKWARD and what I love is the happy ending of finally finding love and your happiness even redeemed yourself from your mistake by doing all your best to be with someone you love. Once I realize that, I am crying out loud that I've done some mistakes out of these 2 weeks to be precise... I love Sofian... I do and I am very sincere I have no other consideration of held up this feeling.but I am so very sorry that I broke my promise for playing again with men. not once twice but 5 times in one week only. I do make my time not worthy again for you Sof... I want to come clean again and again. even I make the same mistake I still have my determination and will to be with you. I wanna be with you Sof... even I have to try years from now... I only want to be with you... because... not only once you've helped me out from the dark, but many times until I lost counts... This is me writing to you sincerely... even I have doing with another person. I cannot erase that you are still my mind's number 1...
Sorry for the man that will be hurt out of this... I will make up the best of me... I will... say sorry...
Thanks god for the lesson today and making understand... that you have to walk through even you are hurt and fucked up... BECAUSE YOU RUN AND WALK FOR YOUR LOVE



BACKWARD by Go,Darmadi Unjaya
Leaves that is falling apart 
like how your body crumble with the sky is falling
Make lots of playing in your game will have parties hurt
not only you but others
So make an end to it by high determination and persistence
I know that someday I deserve what called backward time love
When Life can be turn backward instead being stopped.
You will know and learn your mistake and move forward without making the same mistakes
But...
How If you are a foolish person who makes another same mistakes...
Relax and calm is the best solution...
Know that everyone makes mistakes and not just once they make the same mistake
So... What to do...?
Backward your time and have a redemption to your selfishly Acted things
And still never give up your love...
Because you will never know that love can come out from anywhere anytime he wants :-)

I LOVE YOU SOFIAN ARIF SUSANTO
Sorry that these passed few days I am not in my best state...
I know I am so messed up with life because my clinginess to you
I know that I am not worthy a penny after I've done so many ONS these weeks breaking my commitment so easily...
but..
I will redeemed it even I have to wait all my life... maybe people will laugh... but If this is love be true... WAITING SHALL BE TRUE TOO... I WILL DO EVERYTHING ANYTHING FOR YOU EVEN YOU DON'T ASK... but I COULDN't DO 1 THING even if you asked... LEAVING YOU...
CAUSE WE ARE BROTHERS, WE ARE FRIENDS, WE ARE BESTFRIENDS, and Someday I hope that WE ARE LOVERS, and WE ARE HUSBANDS...

NB : I LOVE HIM... only him.

In Dreams and In Love there is no impossibilities

udah lebih dari enam hari rasanya aku ga update blog ini... well miss this blog so much. but yeah... lagi ga ada uneg2 buat di share kemaren2... ada sih cuman males nulis. banyak banget yang udah terjadi di kehidupan ini... lols banyak tawa, tangis, marah, gusar, dan juga gundah. Tapi semua hal itu udah berlalu dan membuat seorang Go Darmadi Unjaya.... better... as a better man who love Sofian Arif Susanto day by day... lols Maybe i should call it was magical... to love someone that even you yourself still doubt that he can love you back... lols wokakaka tapi dari banyak quotes... aku belajar... bahwa tiap orang buat kesalahan udah dari lahir coy. banyak banget rasanya waktu buat kita untuk buat salah lalu membenarkannya, so apa sih yang kita dapet? PELAJARAN yang berharga yang buat kita ga ngulangin kesalahan itu...lols woakakak... so... ga ada salahnya nyoba dan salah... buat nanti ke depannya bener. bener. tapi untuk kasus kali ini. mungkin aku bener2 bodoh or keras kepala. Untuk terus mencoba sebaik mungkin menjadi lebih baik... well 50% for Sofian but the others for myself... hahahaah.... tapi yah karena dia juga aku bertahan dengan segenap kemampuan dan cintaku...
Lols lucu ya... banyak sekali momen2 yang udah kulewatkan sama dia... lols mulai dari momen berdua yang so sweet sampe momen berdua yang jutek abis. Bukan sempurna kalau aku menjabarkan dia sekarang. dia BANYAK sekali kurangnya, tipeku juga... hemmmmm no comment. tapi ya itu tadi... aku mungkin udah post di FB... but this is the complete version

Banyak yang lebih ganteng dan sempurna sebenarnya
Banyak yang lebih pinter dan kaya raya sebenarnya
Banyak juga yang mau sama seorang Go dan mencintai Go apa adanya
Banyak yang lebih baik dan lebih care sebenarnya
Banyak juga yang bisa aku deketin...
Namunnn... Bagiku... Sofian... PAS...
Dia ga sempurna, suaranya fals lagu pun dia rubah2 seenaknya
Dia itu cuek dan bener2 bullier sejati...
Dia itu orangnya bikin khawatir orang lain karena pencilakan dll
Dia itu orangnya ga mau dipegang kepalanya
Dia itu orangnya kadang serius kadang cerewet
Dia itu kalo jalan maju pas latihan kek robot kakunya
Dia itu bener-bener cinta sipil ampe tiada hari tanpa garap tugas sipil
Dia bukan orang yang pinter segalanya...
Dia juga matematikanya kadang agak payah
Dia juga bukan orang yang super ganteng kayak brad pitt or george clooney muda
Dia juga bukan orang yang bisa gampang bergaul.
Dia juga... kadang ngeselin dan buat aku sampe bener2 ga bisa tenang kalo sama dia(apalagi lek wes debat)
Dia itu semangat korsanya tinggi. care sama setiap orang yang dia bisa bantu
Dia itu cepat tanggap di saat setiap orang lagi butuh bantuan.
Dia itu penghibur sejati yang bisa ngerubah mood yang udah ancur jadi penuh bunga-bunga saking senengnya
Dia itu apa adanya tanpa ada ditutup-in, walaupun sebenernya aku masih merasakan dia sendirian... lols
Dia itu juga kuat kek robot yang tanpa capek selalu kerja kerja kerja futsal futsal dll.
Dia itu pantang menyerah sampe dia berhasil mencapai tujuannya...
Dia juga yang sering bully dan ngomong "MATIO" ke aku woakakaka.... 
Dia juga yang buat aku jatuh cinta dan nglindungin aku walaupun aku rasa itu cuman perasaanku...

So memang banyak orang bisa lebih baik dari Sofian... tapi untuk sekarang hingga waktu yang tak terbatas lagi... SOFIAN PAS buat aku.... di hati, di pikiran, hingga bagi jiwa raga rasanya... udah klop aja...

Hemmm nggombes segini banyak tangan juga jadi kesel... tapi ini uneg2ku... sekarang mungkin aku bukan lagi kagum sih... aku udah bener-bener sayang dan mungkinkah ini bakal menjadi cinta panjang... lols... Mungkin sekarang masih 51 hari lewat... lols cuman aku ga akan menyerah untuk terus bertahan bahkan setelah 200 hari untuk SOFIAN... kata orang ini gila... cuman yah pertama kalinya aku merelakan segalanya untuk satu orang yang hanya bisa buat aku ngelus dada tapi kangennya ga keruan... HAHAHAHA... progress masih berlanjut sih.... masih kurang 149 hari lagi... tapi kerasanya lama bangt... ccuman.... janji seorang laki-laki itu diuji... :-) TAKUT? pasti, cuman aku memilih untuk terus maju dan jadi pemenang dari ketakutanku sendiri... so... I will try my best... lols


LOVE TRANSCEND by Go Darmadi Unjaya

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"Hi SOF"