Kimi - Hana = You - Flower

This is the lyrics of JR song... I love it and this is for sofian too...

Sono te hanasanai de hanasanai de Boku ga soba ni iru kara Donna toki demo waratte waratte Hana wo sakasete yo	Don't let go of that hand, don't let go Because I'm right next to you No matter when, just laugh, laugh And make the flowers bloom
Kimi no daisukina hana ga saita yo Chiisana toge no aru hana ga kesa saita yo Sono toge de jibun wo mamoreru tsumori ka na Tsuyogatte bakari no hana kimi mitai da ne	The flower you love so much blossomed The flower with small thorns blossomed, just this morning I guess it means to protect itself with those thorns It's a flower that only acts strong, quite like you
Nagashisa wo shiru hodo setsunaku narunda Kimi ga nagashitekita namida no nukumori to shitte kara	The more I see of your kindness, the sadder I get Ever since I realized it's the warmth left by the tears you've shed
Kimi ni aitakute aitakute Futari de ireba iru hodo sabishiku naru nara Sabishikunaku naru made te wo tsunagou Sono te hanasanai de hanasanai de Boku ga soba ni iru kara Donna toki demo waratte waratte Hana wo sakasete yo	I want to see you, want to see you If it's lonelier the more we are together Then let's simply hold hands until it's not lonely anymore Don't let go of that hand, don't let go Because I'm right next to you No matter when, just laugh, laugh And make the flowers bloom
Kimi ga dokka no hoshi ni hohoemi kakeru nara Sora wo miageru dake de shiawase ni narunda	If some distant star makes you smile Then just looking at the sky makes me happy
Nanigenai koto mo itoshiku omou no ha Kimi to iu na no hana ga kono mune ni saita kara	The reason I now find the simplest things dear to me Is because the flower known as you has blossomed in my heart
Kimi ni aitakute aitakute Futari de ireba iru hodo sabishiku naru nara Sabishikunaku naru made te wo tsunagou Sono te hanasanai de hanasanai de Boku ga soba ni iru kara Donna toki demo waratte naite ageru kara Soba ni ite	I want to see you, want to see you If it's lonelier the more we are together Then let's simply hold hands until it's not lonely anymore Don't let go of that hand, don't let go I'm right next to you No matter when, I'll laugh and cry for you So stay by my side
Mizu wo agenakya karete shimau kara Sonna toge ja nani mo mamorenai yo Tsuyogatte bakari no hana nanda Sono toge de kizutsukanai de sonna ni mou nakanai de	If it's not watered, it'll wither With such small thorns, it's impossible to protect anything It really is just acting strong, the flower Please don't be hurt by those thorns, and don't cry so
Sono te hanasanai yo hanasanai yo Futari de ireba iru hodo sabishiku naru nara Sabishikunaku naru made te wo tsunagou Chiisana sono toge de boku no te wo tatoe kizutsuketemo	I won't let go of that hand, I won't let go If it's lonelier the more we are together Then let's simply hold hands until it's not lonely anymore Even if my hand is hurt by the small thorns.

This Song... is My life Now....

DISTANCE by Christina Perri and Jason Mraz (wrote the lyrics after hear it)

The sun is filling up the room
And I can hear you dreaming
Do you feel the way I do
Right now
I was feel I just give up
Cause the best part just falling
Call it anything but love

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say I Love You and you are not listening
And how long can we keep this up up up?...

Please don't stand so close to me
Having trouble breathing
I am afraid of what you'll see
Right now

I give you everything I am
All my broken heart beats
Until I know you'll understand

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say I Love You and you're not listening
And how long can we keep this up up up?....

And I keep waiting
For you to take meeee
You keep waiting ey ey ey
To save what we have

So I make sure to keep my distance
Say I Love You and you're not listening
And how long can we keep this up up up?

Make sure keep my distance
Say I Love You and you're not listening
How long till we call this love love love

My love for sofian still not an ending... but surely... I will keep my distance for his safety...
Love him so much till this heart wanna burst when I saw that wall post.
But I guess I am just too sensitive... But I'll understand...

Something Bout Love

Something 'bout love, love 
Something 'bout love, love
Every night 
it's all the same 
You're frozen by the phone 
You wait, something's changed  
You blame yourself every day 
You do it again every night
 
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart  
Whoa oh oh oh, it sets you free 
There's something 'bout love that tears you up  
Whoa oh oh oh, you still believe
 
When the world falls down like the rain 
It'll bring you to your knees 
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart  
Whoa oh oh oh, but don't give up  
There's something 'bout love
 
When you were young, scared of the night 
Waiting for love to come along and make it right 
Your day will come, the past is gone 
So take your time and live and let live
 
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart  
Whoa oh oh oh, it sets you free 
There's something 'bout love that tears you up  
Whoa oh oh oh, you still believe
 
When the world falls down like the rain 
It'll bring you to your knees  

There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart 
Whoa oh oh oh, but don't give up  
There's something 'bout love
 
Don't fight, don't hide those stars in your eyes  
Let em' shine tonight 
Let em' shine tonight
Hang on, hang in for the ride of your life It's gonna be alright  
Hold on tight
 
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart 
Whoa oh oh oh
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart  
Whoa oh oh oh, it sets you free 

There's something 'bout love that tears you up 
Whoa oh oh oh, you still believe
When the world falls down like the rain  
It'll bring you to your knees 

There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart 
Whoa oh oh oh, but don't give up  
There's something 'bout love
Whoa oh oh oh, sets you free 

There's something bout love that tears you up 
Whoa oh oh oh, you still believe
When the world falls down like the rain  
It'll bring you to your knees 

There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart 
Whoa oh oh oh, but don't give up 
There's something 'bout love

FEARS

I think that lil word is the word that comes into my heart... Now
I cannot think about anything than those comments...
I think I am slumber into emptiness from the times now come forwards

INI ITU DIA AKU KAMU dan CINTA

Hari ini well... aku hanya bisa terus mengamati berbagai macam hal yang terjadi di depan mataku...
aku hanya bisa menatap segalanya dengan pandangan abu-abu. terkesan lucu mungkin bagi banyak orang, terkesan bukan masalah yang terlalu penting untung sekedar dibicarakan.

Namun... karena hari ini juga... mungkin hatiku... jiwaku... sudah perlahan-lahan redup tanpa ada bekas lagi... mungkin jika ini berlanjut hanya akan tersisa pikiran dan badanku saja untuk belajar dan terus belajar... mendapat prestasi tertinggi lulus kuliah... kerja dan kerja... hingga suatu saat menjadi bhikkhu mungkin... di waktu ini saja... itu tidak bisa mengisi hatiku yang kosong dan dia hanya menjadikanku sebagai bahan candaan... aku... bahkan menganggap diriku sudah pesimist untuk menang. kamu yang ingin menolongku sudah hampir tertutup cinta ku oleh segala permasalah yang ada... dan kamu tidak pernah ada di sampingku... atau mungkin aku yang sudah dibutakan...

Sekarang. sofian... hahaha... mungkin pada saat hari ke 200 hatiku ada kemungkinan sudah benar2 mati. dan pada saat itu apakah aku sudah mendapatkan hal yang kuinginkan... lucu dan terdengar sangat renyah di telinga kenyataan bahwa belum 200 hari dan semangat juangku tidak berada di angka 100 lagi namun berada di angka 2... yah 2.. lols.. aku masih belum menemukan alasan aku untuk menemukan lagi kebahagiaanku. toh, selama ini hanya ada masalah, kerjaan, kerjaan, tugas dan lain2 yang terus melanda GO... hahaha... Go mungkin berdiri sebagai batu karang yang tegar... dengan segala kelembutan GO terlihat GO adalah manusia lembek, namun satu hal... saking kuatnya aku hingga sekarang aku bisa percaya akan hidup yang terus berputar... namun... tanpa cinta... apakah roda kehidupan akan terputar. apakah janji akan disimpul dan hidup dianyam dari selembar sutra compang camping yang telah kumal dan bernoda?

Adakah lelaki yang mau dengan kain gombal murahan yang memiliki jiwa sepudar kertas kusut bekas cabikan manusia...? adakah? Perasaaan tidak pernah bisa dibohongi. sejauh apapun aku berlari dari kenyataan aku adalah penyuka sesama jenis... :-) semakin aku terkekang dalam penjara yang bahkan sebenarnya aku tidak tahu yang mana... hahaah ironis... dan untuk malam ini... aku hanya bisa menyerah duduk tanpa ekspresi di depan laptop... memikirkan... well "NOTHING"


SIAPAPUN by Go, Darmadi Unjaya
Semerah darah segar mengalir ke dalam tubuh
Sehitam awan malam di perbatasan
Sedingin jarum penusuk tulang di dalam hatiku
Serapuh sumsum seribu menggeregoti jiwaku

Hanya ingin bilang aku menyayangimu
namun ku hanya diam dan melihat
Hanya ingin bilang aku mencintaimu
namun ku hanya memandang dan terduduk dalam kebisuan

Senyummu... indah bagaikan surya bersinar di tengah kelamnya malam
Keringatmu tersinari matahari memberi arti perjuangan keras dalam hidup yang tangguh
Namun bibir ini hanya bisa diam dan terpaku tanpa bisa berkata aku ingin jadi milikmu
Yah... aku telah menjadi milikmu... kata itu... kata yang terbuang karena bisu datang...

Dan sekali lagi... aku hanyalah... Siapapun...

Love Quotes from Video

This might be a little awkward... but yeah
I found this at one of youtube videos... Check it out

Gay Love Quotations
or might be mine now to Sofi 

You are what I never knew that I always wanted
You were given
Two legs to walk
Two hands to hold
Two eyes to see
Two ears to listen
But why only one heart
Because the other one was given to someone else
For you to find

When death to either shall come
I pray it be First to me

When you(I) are(am) in love
You(I) can't fall asleep
Because reality is better than your(my) dreams

When I saw you
I fell in love
And you smiled because you knew
To the world you may be one person
but to one person(me) you may be the world

The night has a thousand eyes
And the day but one
Yet the light of the bright world dies with the dying sun
The mind had a thousand eyes
And the heart but one
Yet the light of a whole life dies
When love is done

I love you
Not for what you are
But for what I am when I'm with you

Only fools fall in love
And I guess I'm one of them

Don't say you love me
Unless you mean it
Because I might do something crazy
Like I believe it

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot
Who calls you back when you hung up on him
Who will lie in under the stars and listen to your heartbeat
Or stay awake just to watch you sleep
Wait for the boy you who kissess your forehead
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats
One who constantly reminds you how lucky  he is to have you
The one who turns to his friends and says
"That's him(The One 19A)"

I will follow you
And make a heaven out of hell
Then I'll die by your hand
Which I love so well

Listen to no one who tells you how to love
Your love is like no other
And that is what make it beautiful
If I;d to choose  between loving you and breathing
I would use my last breath to say I love you

I will hate the man you marry because he is not me
And love him
If he makes you smile

I will hate the woman you marry because she is not me
And love her
If she makes you smile

That is my resolution for today... all the quotations... :-) touched me... And for the bold ones... I meant it for Sofian to respect his decision...
Good Morning and Let me sleep

"APAKAH AKU INI PANTAS BUAT DICINTAI ataupun orang-orang sih?"

Ketika aku merasakan amarah dalam dada, sebenarnya adalah aku yang ingin menutupi kesedihan dan ketakutan yang aku rasakan setelah aku dicerca habis-habisan. Tahukah bahwa aku tadi hampir menangis setelah aku dikejutkan oleh suara lantang Bu Monica dosen waliku yang dengan gampangnya mencercaku tanpa alasan yang relevan dengan topik yang sedang aku bahas. Aku ingin berteriak dan menangis saat itu. namun ada Beatrice dan Marchellyn aku jadi tidak ingin menunjukkan wajah jelekku saat menangis... Saat di mako... ada orang yang kusuka dan juga Bu Tania... sekali lagi aku tak kuasa menunjukkan kesedihanku lagi. Jadinya aku hanya menunjukkan amarahku yang menggebu-gebu tanda aku kuat dan tegas dalam menghadapi masalah. Aku sama sekali tidak ingin menyusahkan mereka, apalagi Sofian dan Bu Tania... Hahahaha maybe I am a foolish one... but yeah better that I am hurting than I have to bear to see them hurting. So, tadi bener-bener ada suasana ga enak di mako apalagi pada saat aku lagi aku menjadi orang yang sangat sensitif dan gampang tersinggung. Padahal Sofian hanya berkata dengan nadanya yang biasa, namun kenapa ya aku benar-benar tersinggung dan langsung meninggalkan mako. lagi-lagi... aku membuatnya melihat salah satu bagian diriku yang kelam... ahahahaha muncul tiba-tiba pertanyaan.

"APAKAH AKU INI PANTAS BUAT DICINTAI  ataupun orang-orang sih?"

Sedikit demi sedikit aku berpikir... dan yah hanya 1 jawaban yang terngiang hingga sekarang. dan lebih baik aku simpan jawaban itu lekat-lekat di hatiku :-) untuk sekarang :-)

Hari ini... indah sekali.. aku diperbolehkan untuk main mainan di laptopnya ... namun yah sekali lagi... untuk waktu yang sebentar saja :-) :-( hahaahah lols woakaakakk

Udah deh gitu aja... mulai gatel di mako banyak nyamuk soale belum mandi =.=a woakaakakak

CRYSTAL by Go Darmadi Unjaya

Hurt the feeling of a crystal
always be a crack in that place
What I can do?
Maybe smiling and try to make another beautiful carving out from that carve...
Because the inner strength of a people is...
How they make their suffering a new happiness for all and for his love :-)
Love you sofi...
and Love you tooo BU TANIA WIJAYA... lols for being my other half :-)

My Dark Side

Kelly Clarkson - Dark Side
 
There's a place that i know 
it's not pretty there and few have ever gone 
if i show it to you now 
will it make you run away
 
or will you stay
even if it hurts 
even if i try to push you out 
will you return? 
and remind me who i really am 
please remind me who i really am
 
everybody's got a dark side  
do you love me? 
can you love mine? 
nobody's a picture perfect 
but we're worth it  
you know that we're worth it 
will you love me? 
even with my dark side?
 
like a diamond 
from black dust  
it's hard to know what can become 
If you give up  
so don't give up on me 
please remind me who i really am
 
everybody's got a dark side  
do you love me? 
can you love mine? 
nobody's a picture perfect  
but we're worth it 
you know that we're worth it 
will you love me?  
even with my dark side?
 
don't run away 
don't run away  
just tell me that you will stay
promise me you will stay 
\don't run away 
\don't run away  
just promise me you will stay 
promise me you will stay
 
will you love me? ohh
 
everybody's got a dark side 
do you love me?  
can you love mine?  
nobody's a picture perfect 
but we're worth it  
you know that we're worth it 
will you love me? 
even with my dark side?

Read more: KELLY CLARKSON - DARK SIDE LYRICS

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/dark-side-lyrics-kelly-clarkson.html ]

:-) LEMON TREE :-)

I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree

I'm sitting here
I miss the power
I'd like to go out taking a shower
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired
Put myself into bed
While nothing ever happens and I wonder

Isolation is not good for me
Isolation I don't want to sit on the lemon-tree

I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
And I wonder, wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see, and all that I can see, and all that I can see
Is just a yellow lemon-tree

I think this is what I feel now... but yeah since I am doing it for free and not gonna as for compensation in my love life... I can only smile for this morning. taught me lots of things about trust, about nature,