Saat Berteman jadi hal yang sangat langka

God thank you for your patronage today because you have helped to be lucky in life...

Well, I am very lucky... first without prep my english got 80, and civic better too...

I have this better future... I will and I will get it...

And I will help lot of people...

Hey all... This is a story

Today this person ignoring me lot... my heart broken but with my spirit I've already rose from my pain... Even being ignored I still rely on him a little hope for a time this one will accept me and love me... My way needs lot of guts.... So it depends on my strength to survive this love...

And a guts to Shout it out loud to the public that I LOVE this person

I think that's enough for now...

This I tell you

April 21th will be my DAY of broken heart ... BUT I will get OVER it By the last time I see this person

I LOVE YOU

BMW serie 7 I will get you

TIANSHI I will success in you....

HUaahahahahahahahaha

When my Love is unrequited

Hi Everybody... It was a very sick day yesterday... I couldn't update this blog T.T
Hmmmm well, this is the update:::
I have a crush, Love crush, I have already worked very hard but it is very hard to impress someone, especially someone who dislikes me very much. Until I graduate I will look and care for this person. Hmmm so crucial moment because I just have 1 more year to spend the time with this person. I am happy when my crush happy...
Loner Ranger that was me but to see someone happy I will always help each other...
Change, that's what I want from this person, already change into a better person today...
I hope the happiness will always be with you!!!

VERY MAD!!! BUT SO in Love

Oh God I am so angry... HMMM but because of them I still can survive this day... I love them by the heart of mine... I think of competing in UWK debate competition next week... I hope I will get this right on the air...
I am so in tense today because of my friend... but what can I do... that was my payment from my doing long time ago... but I think if someone ask me about categorize it as a bullying, I will say NO... I will say it is a friendship looked in lot of perspective, and I believe KAEL will always get these things right. he will always live in me... 1 year, 10 years, or 50 years from now he will live in my world...

Hmmm tomorrow historical test will be held... I hope all of my friends can pass the test... JIA YOU... hmmm and you know I love one of this friends... but it will be a kataomoi forever because i will not take it as a chance just a love till it will pass in my life...

I am sure I will find my true love someday...

Well I am an TIANSHI agent... If all of you interested to have your own business and success... join with me... and i will help you to achieve that... because my life dedicated for that only

Saat Kau bertemu dengan Orang

Well maybe you think you are worthless and not great enough to be in this harsh world...
but the think is you are feeling it not the truth that had spoken... because the truth is different... you are worthy, everyone is worthy in this world coz you will make someone sad if you are gone... so never think you are worthless and you will be worthy... thanks to my friends, kevin prayogo, michael christian tjandra, and valerie varnette ludong for giving me this wonderful proof of how beautiful my life is, for having such friends like ivana, Christina, Felicia, Avissia, etc
I can never pay you back but i will do everything to help you gain your success in life...
YEAHHHHH I will HELP MY BEST FRIEND

maybe someone said to me it was a mistake to just even think of becoming my friend ==>his opinion...
BUT I will never regret to have a friend like all of you....
Thank you all of my BESTFRIEND

people said best friend just one but for me everyone in my life is my best friend... NO everything in my life are my best friends... LOL love you guys know or not knoew you just love and peace for you.....
XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD

When I am HOME

At 3.54 p.m. this afternoon I was arrived at home... There was something so different today...
I was at psychology expo this morning and i learned lot of experience from this expo... I will decide my future at UBAYA university... I am sure not everyone have a positive feedback on me but i will prove it that I will find my life in here. psychology is my life because i love to help each to solve their problem and give them power to rise from their "down" condition. Maybe i am introvert person who scared when it comes to talk with stranger(someone I haven't knew). But, I believe in this major i will learn it to be a better man...

My feelings are very good today because i can go home safely... LOL but I thought that i mistakenly angry with my friends... For that I apologize... hmmmm so beautiful today... my mom welcome me with love and I am very happy for that

NEW THING

I am very proud to say my business now is TIANSHI.
I have already watched "Menebus Impian" in cinema yesterday... It is cliche but the social life was very GREAT... SUPER GREAT... that's why i will try harder to find a great person in my group... well if you all of my readers want to know just always contact me in my Facebook. I will help you till WE success... so try to understand...
LOL Go TIANSHI for achieving the "life" HOHOHO
Buddha Bless Us all...
Love you Papa n Mama and this I dedicated for you and all creature in this world...

A Thing From A friend

This I have heard from a friend from Bina Widya named Wendy Chen... I am so Happy today because I am so happy... LOL. Silly but yeah I am happy because my friends are happy...

For My Family, I love you too... I heard my sister got 100 in her Oral test IBM... SUPER great... That's my sister Go Vania Lukito Untari... Jia You and keep it that way... HOHOHOHO
So Happy... Hmmm... I think I need something to do today...

This what I've heard

simpanlah renungan hati ini agar kamu selalu
bahagia.
1.hari ini adalah hari baruku setelah kehancuranku.
2.hari ini adalah hari baru dalam hidupku.
3.ku harus menjadi yang terbaik,baik melebihi hari yang tlah berlalu.
4.senyuman harus ada dalam hidupku kemarin saat ini,dan masa depan.
5.kesedihan cuma sebentar,dan kebahagi...aan h...anya sejenak.
6.aku harus memberitahu pada dunia,aku tlah bahagia atas kekosonganku.
7.inilah hidup baru yang membuatku lebih mengerti ap itu hidup dan kebahagiaan.
8.dunia kini menatapku... dunia kini tersenyum padaku...
9.dan aku juga tersenyum kepada dunia.
10.aku harus berguna bagi dunia...

11.dunia membutuhkanku....
12.saya bahagia saya sunguh sunguh beruntung...
13.dunia tidak membuatku merasa lapar,merasa sedih
14.aku tak'an merasakan lagy apa itu derita,dan derita pun bukan sesuatu yang akan membuatku sedih,karena aku selalu menganggap semuanya tiada
15.aku lah sebuah kesempurnaan...
16.aku adalah kesempurnaan,tidak akan lagi rasa iri dan mengiginkan apa yang bukan milik ku dan apa yang tak patut ku miliki
17.aku adalah diriku....aku tidak boleh merasa takud karena ditakuttakutin,aku gk boleh marah karena dibuat emosi,aku tidak boleh menjadi liar karena sekitar,aku tak boleh sedih karena ada yang menyakiti
18.inilah kehidupan.....aku harus berjuang...aku harus tenang....aku harus bertahan....karena hidup adalah hidup...dan hanya kekosongan yang membuatku menjadi yg utama...

JENUH

Aku nggak tahu apa yang sebenarnya terjadi hari ini.... Aku merasa segalanya berubah drastis...
Tapi aku bisa pastikan hanya hari ini...
Aku merasa sedih padahal di sekelilingku banyak teman yang menyertaiku.... namun segalanya tampak sangat semu... sebagian dari mereka sudah sibuk dengan urusannya sendiri... Andai saja aku bisa dapatkan satu teman yang tak lekang oleh waktu pasti aku tidak akan se-miserable seperti sekarang ini.
Aku memimpikan segalanya agar jadi lebih baik... namun yang paling penting dari sebuah impian adalah bagaimana kita menjalankannya bukan kita berpikir dan terus berpikir karena itu akan membuat kita menjadi berada tidak pada tempatnya...
Berangsur-angsur aku mulai pulih dari kemasa depananku... aku selalu berandai-andai... memang itu sangat bagus tapi yang paling penting adalah SEKARANG, kalau kita hanya berpikir tanpa berusaha yah percuma kan???
Maka dari itu aku sekarang akann memfokuskan diriku hanya di dalam berjuang terlebih dulu... Namun mimpiku dalam mencapai kesuksesan untuk membantu orang lain dan membahagiakan orang tuaku yang sangat aku cintai...
DAN aku percaya bahwa nantinya dengan TIANSHI aku bisa menjadi seperti yang aku harapkan... BUT I have to do SOMETHING NOW

FOR MY DEAREST
PA
MA
LIA
VANIA
????
Love you ALL

FATHER

Father You are so Blink in the light of the families...
BUT sometimes consider yours...
Love you all the time...
Your radical son or beloved son...
Wu HANLI

MOTHER

I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR HER
EVEN GIVING AWAY MY SOUL JUST FOR HER>>>
I LOVE HER ETERNALLY TILL ALL MY LIVES END...

LOVE or FAMILY or FAMILY'sLOve

Hmm, confused by my case of life...
I LOVE MY FAMILY
That's true...
But only my relative bonded family...
Cause they are so kind with no bullshit...
If anyone read this... I hope you will understand my pain

What is family if they are being **** all the time...
I can't figure it out until now
Are families supposed to help each other without evil intention???

Well, Families in my world are not like that....
They are exposing secret and turn each other down with no exception...

Lucky for the one with BAD GOODIES in HOSP...
I think they all must know if this world is balance... YOu do a thing good or bad it will grow into a fruit and you will have it the time it ripped... So they have it...

I pitied them who are a family without soul of a family a.k.a. PARANOIA with the others...

All people like this will suffer all of their life because no one trustworthy for them...

NB : That's it for now hmmm I am very happy today...
My friend invited me to her sweet 17th b'day party... I hope today will be a great day...
Love everyone in this world especially MY FAMILIES...
Gate gate paragate parasam gate bodhi svaha

The most poisonous thing in THE WORLD

Do you know what it is???

MIND

Yeah poisonous and killing you if you are sad or envy, or cannot accepting the fact in the reality....

so Mind... do you know if you are always think in every activity you do...???
Like me, Today I went to a barber to cut my hair so it will look NICE... but everything turned out to be worse... (tadaaaa... I am thinking of it) but my father said i was more manly now... well for me to see my father smile is a great pay off. but when there is good thing there will be a bad one(balance of life) HUff yep... my mother seemed so dislike the "square" concept of my hair... Hmmm I thought my life will be a misery today...

GUeeessss whaaaattt??? YEAH my life suck today...

But like I've said before... to see someone happy it is the greatest pay off...

Today i want to end up everything from old Darmadi to new Darmadi...
significant of course... IDK what will happen tomorrow...
But the old Darmadi will be gone forever...
I hope i can be better person...


Even if i have to be so controversial...
WITH IT(Status)

The MAESTRO

Today I was lucky... meeting and chatting with a MAESTRO... he is great at guitar... you know who... well well... having friend like him are my good fortune... Now i have realized that everything happens because my behavior in the class of mine... They all think that i am so nerd and don't want to interact... but the truth is
I am AFRAID...
of being rejected by them... I have so many friends from elementary school... that's why I don't need a long time to adapt in my junior high school... but in Surabaya??? I have to... but still, everyone has already have their synnistical behavior label on me... Huff what should I do...
Then I have something in my mind... this song of the MAESTRO put me back into shape condition... these 2 songs(alone with me and in the middle of the round) have boosted my spirit again... so now for my classmates, I am so sorry if in the past I'm not interactive. I am trying right now to be a better person in my life...

But again i still have this kataomoi... and maybe it's because I am afraid to communicate with a person... hmmmm... I will not let that feeling constrains me in the dark... I will fight it...

and
YOU Too my FRIEND...

Never Let your fear put you down. Find the strength and Say "I Can Do This"


Thank you for my new friend today... Love the music... keep it up prodigy boy...

NB : love give your spirit...

CIAO

Tahun ke - 2 "my dearest aunt"

Pernahkah Anda tahu apa yang direncanakan oleh hidup ini
Sebagian dari kita mungkin berpikir bahwa hidup sudah digariskan
Namun aku tak pernah berpikir itu lagi. Lagi??? yah, dulu aku sempat berpikir seperti itu.
Namun ternyata hidup ini bagaikan jalan yang berliku dan bahkan kadang tidak ada yang segaris.
Jadi hidup itu adalah HIDUP. dia hidup layaknya manusia yang dapat bertumbuh. namun tak selalu ke atas dan berbentuk lurus bukan??? Hidup bisa tumbuh ke dalam yaitu perasaan, juga bisa tumbuh ke samping dan ke atas. Jadi inilah hidup...

Dan kalau bisa dibilang hidup ini adalah ketidakmenentuan yang telah ada sejak kita lahir.
Nah... pernahkah Anda sekali lagi berpikir bahwa sebenarnya hidup ini singkat adanya?
Karena seperti yang telah aku saksikan dalam perjalanan hidupku. Orang-orang yang sangat aku sayangi hidup lebih singkat daripada yang lainnya. My dearest Aunt, she helped my family like a true family, Have high respect and responsibility to the family she had. When I was in hospital after surgery, she was like my second mother in my life. She took care of me with LOVE.
"I care about you, just think I am your mother too" she said to me when she was taking care of me.
Hmm, I feel so relaxed and filled with joy. Source of my survival... She passed away in 2008. it was a great shock for me... I couldn't believe it. Life is not fair, I said that time... with lot of tears
She was very beautiful in the last time of our meeting... I hope she always happy in her next life
Gate Gate Paragate parasam Gate Bodhi Svaha (3x)

Yah 2 tahun yang lalu itulah yang terjadi. 1 tahun yang lalu I still couldn't get over it. Crying was my choice that time... Tapi untuk hari ini berbeda... dengan senang aku datang dan berdoa agar beliau selalu berbahagia di alam manapun yang beliau tempati. Dan jika ada Karma yang baik, bertemu lagi dengan beliau merupakan hal yang sangat aku impikan...

Namun tahun kedua ini semuanya berubah... Sangat sepi dan tidak ada kekeluargaan lagi. Aku bertanya-tanya apakah ini yang sebenarnya keluarga?
Mengakunya keluarga namun tak satupun sikap kekeluargaan diberikan antar sesama anggota dengan tanpa pamrih... aku hanya berpikir, tak pernahkah bagi seorang anggota keluarga untuk membantu dengan tulus ikhlas. Padahal akan ada pahala yang sangat besar jika kita tulus mencintai sesama anggota keluarga, bukan "cinta transaksi" yang bisa diobral dan ada "discount 50% nya"

Yah inilah mungkin yang terjadi tahun ini, tidak dapat kita tebak untuk tahun selanjutnya. mungkin lebih baik dan lebih respectful dalam hal tradisi, ataupun malah terlupakan hingga ke akar-akarnya...
sangat memilukan jika mengetahui keluarga yang "non-keluarga"
Memang ada yang bilang keluarga itu darah sedang teman diibaratkan air... namun ada saatnya keluarga hanya menjadi darah yang sangat encer sedang air bisa berubah menjadi bentuk yang lebih padat ataupun kental...

Di tahun yang kedua ini I want to say to all of you who read this... even they have already passed away, do not ever think to forget them, coz' you will never know what will happen to you when it is your time...
Thank you
NB: Tuako semoga para Buddha dan Bodhisatva Mahasattva terus menyertai Tuako. Hidup bahagia bersama-sama... terus lindungi semuanya agar berjalan lancar tanpa hambatan.
Tahun ini mungkin tak seperti kemarin, banyak keluarga yang seharusnya bisa hadir namun menolak keberatan... Ya inilah hidup...
Tapi itu semua Tidak akan AKU lakukan...

Be Mindful, Be Alive

My Computer and My so called LIFE

For 2 Days i have lost contact with the world... My computer broke and I repaired it in DM computer.... Woo-hoo... and for 2 Days my life had been put into misery..... WOofff...
But now I have it back and you know what,,, I feel like I'm gonna kiss the world... Oh life, you are so beautiful and i know my life too.

Hmmmm About my life again. The day when I was in the travel, I heard a song called " BUNDA "
I felt so comfort yet so sad... In my life I always make her suffers with my irrationality... But still She loves me everyday. The thing I am so grateful is because I have her in my side. And I still waiting for the moment I will fly through the blue sky.

Then my thought float into another... Dad... I love you very much... you are my motivation of surviving... LOL hmmm. And Again I was so sad at that time, I remembered how ridiculous I was in the past for making him in pain... After Bina Widya I've realized that I will atone all of that with doing a great things to make'em happy... I will do it till the life of mine vanish and the other life and so on...

And Thanks to my new friends for helping survive these 2 days.... hahahaahaha... They will think that I am so LEBAYYYYY but this is who I am and what I am...

FREAK=> Just wait a minute=> In certain condition NO but In certain conditions YES...

NB: I will Get over it so fast even you won't notice it

And the boy again sleep in the darkness waiting someone to save him from this torturing,
"I'm OK,,, Relax" He said. "You're not OK, You can't get over it that easy, well boy, have a little more faith on it and again you will gain... OK son"
"HMMM, I'm not sure, this person always make me crazy, so cold yet so warm, so deep yet so shallow... That's why I love this Person"
"..." I can't say anything that time and again I told him to live his life more and more and to let it flow... pity but lovely...

Yeah That's Life

BINA WIDYA 2-4 April 2010

Loe Taw G seh apa yang namanya "KUERRRREEENNN"
EXACTLY is "COOOOOOLLLLLL"
I've just arrived at home from Mahavihara Mojopahit Trowulan. I got into this activity called BINA WIDYA (Education of Buddhist Training Program).
Theme= Be mindful Be Alive
One word only... "COOL"

That was a great moment when I have really accepted by my community... That's so "GREATTTT"

From this 3 days I've learned lot of things...

I am very Gratitude
These Thank You I'll dedicated to:
Krisna my friend
Ko Teguh as 50 kg
Sasshy Loves Daddy
Darius The DADAR
Ariya The Baboon Monk
Wendy CHEN as ???
Yongky as tooth brush(pure Joke)
Edwin as Tai Guo Elephant/Barongsai/Gajah Thailand(LOL)
Gunanto the Gugun Wijaya(LOL)
Edgar spiritualist teacher
Ko MOMING or Mr. Hendra Lim from PUSDIKLAT
Ce Ida as the mentor
and all of the committee in this wonderful and fabulous activity, even all the other participants of this activity
If there is 1 song for all of you is

DEAR FRIENDS
Dear Friends
Dear Friends
Let me tell you how I feel
You Have Given me such treasures
I LOVE YOU SO(***x/Eternity x)
Thank you guys, Today I am very happy to publish this

Very Very Very HAPPY
Hope I will join KDABB GO GO GO GO GO
WOO-HOOOOOOOOOOO

L.O.V.E

Just arrived at home with sadistic events
My Computer broken!!!
but with passion and calm mind, finally i can make things right.
I think i will reconsider to apply in informatics major
BUTTTT
Psychology still number 1 for me
And what about the title???

This I will tell you...
LOVE is not always pure feeling but the source of energy
When you love someone you will always think about all the good things in this person, that will bring us a wonderful life and make us finally find the best part of our body & soul

Quoted from someone in Radio when I was in travel tonight.

Suddenly i feel so anxious about my life and then everything turn out to be so peaceful... But now i realized if i still have a chance... but who'll want me like this except some people who have already knew me better.

After I got home the thing suddenly changed again into something very wonderful

You know why I still believe even the CHANCE is below standard???

Because with L.O.V.E. anything can happen

For now i will say to all of you...
BELIEVE IN LOVE and everything will be in the way...
Prove it like one of my family member...
Their strong love and bond let them do everything...
Yeah this is the power of Eri and Carle's love

BUSINESS oh BUSINESS

The third time I've updated my post... I'm so excited with all new things
Hmmmm... I want to share with you my new experience of love. 3 months ago Idk this person...
But now I'm like connected... It seems the story of this boy will be mostly the same with me... LOL. but the difference is I am not into the same person again.... LOL... Kinda awkward... butttttt.... Yeah.... Look so great...
@ 6 in the evening I will go home in Mojokerto... have you ever heard of this beautiful and peaceful town of mine... well If you have, GREAT but if you don't c'mon visit my wonderful town...

Whatever... LOL HMMM anything to share??? yeah...
I have already became *3 in my new business called TIANSHI... well, some of you will have lot of impressions(Super Bad or Super Good) after you've heard this business's name, but the thing is
PROVE IT YOURSELF!!! Do not want to be foolished by people's talk or maybe just one people brain washing you(especially a person who brainwashing someone with saying "you've already brainwashed by THEM"). LOL
So for now If you know this business will bring you more joy contact me in my Facebook...
I will be there ASAP...
GO TIANSHI INDONESIA, SURABAYA, JAWA TIMUR (urghhhhh mixed up)
SEE YOU SOON my fellow READERS

My First Experience

Owwww My God... This is the first time I have a blog and customized it.... Hufff so Irritating at first because I'm kinda new about this. After 30 minutes trying some crazy things in this blog... finally I've already mastered 10% of this "thing" Humm in this blog there will be 2 person who regulate it...
Well the first would be me and second is the other person... look out about the different in our languages... LOL
Formal=not me(you could say KAEL)
Informal=ME
so in this second post i will say "HI" to all of you who will be in my blog or just passing by... but I hope there will be someone...
COZ it will be lonely if there is no one...
Enough talking for now
And Let's make it WONDERFUL Woo-Hoo Yeah yeah yeah...
SECRET OPENING at August,17th 2011... remind me later!!!
CIAO
Me&KAEL
NB: my blog will be dedicated for all people in this world who need help... 1st one=AIDS

Saat Kita Bertanya Tanya...

Ada saatnya di mana kita bertanya-tanya tentang apa yang ingin kita lakukan di dunia ini.

Seorang laki-laki berusia 16 tahun yang mengidam-idamkan sesuatu yang terlampau tinggi, namun terkadang ada yang dia tanyakan tentang hidupnya. Bagaimana dia bisa mencapai semua hal tersebut saat dia sendiri tidak tahu apa yang harus diperbuatnya terhadap hidupnya yang mulai terasa sangat menyakitkan... ???

Dulu
Dia menyukai seseorang, namun tak pernah bisa menyampaikan. Ia memendam dalam-dalam hingga akhirnya perasaannya tak tersampaikan. Lalu beberapa waktu kemudian dia memasuki suatu komunitas yang baru, lagi-lagi ia dengan mudahnya terjatuh lagi, kali ini dia berhasil menyampaikannya, namun akhirnya pun tak ada kesempatan yang datang padanya. Setelah itu ia menutup ceritanya yang panjang dan memasuki lembaran yang baru dalam perjalanannya dalam hidup yang berliku.

Waktu dia berlibur di bertemu dengan seseorang yang sepintas tidak cocok buatnya. Tetapi waktu pun berkata lain, terlalu banyak bertegur sapa dan membicarakan sesuatu membuatnya mulai tertarik dengan orang tersebut. Nah, sekarang dia mulai berusaha sepenuh jiwanya untuk mendapatkan perhatian dari orang yang mulai dia cintai tersebut. Tak ayal perjuangannya bakalan lama sekali, namun AKU berkata padanya,"Berjuanglah untuk menggapai apa yang benar-benar kamu inginkan selama 3 tahun ini!"

Apa yang dia inginkan sebenarnya sangat kecil, yaitu CINTA dari seseorang yang benar-benar memahaminya , dan bersedia menjadi pelindungnya hingga nanti ia dapat keluar dari belenggunya yang terus melarangnya berkata "INILAH AKU". Pada saat itu juga dia akan meminta sang CINTA untyuk jadi pendamping hidupnya selama dia hidup di dunia... MAJU TERUS