Black Burgundy

People usually as persistent as a shadow that always be with us all the time.
But not for these people that usually take place in other people businessess
Well like the color of Black Burgundy. Strong emanating powers but powers to disturb and destruct
In these past few months I have so many things that I wanted to tell all of you but yeah... Time is limited and for me who just get along with my new life as a regiment now... Need to adjust
So I continue my university era with lots of obstacles, new class, new classmates, new border, and definitely new adjustment in this big world of university

Not long ago, yesterday to be exact... my chems teacher from high school died because of lung cancer. Love her so much but yeah. God wants her more than us wanting her to be alive so... He took her away... and I can accept it more more this day. But, actually what I couldn't believe until now is. In that time, there are also another case about my regiment that bothers me with lots of cases. Makes me cry inside all of the time. Why they cannot let me through with moment of condolences instead of bothering me with the politics issues and definitely about the seniority sorority program... DUH...

But yeah I can cope with it and the truth that I still have nobody to ease my pain... is still true...
I have to be in my greatest mood everyday, even there are lots of problems. people asking me questions, telling things, even slandered with their own way. I still have to smile. and WIDE smile I have given to all of them. For me these days... IT's SUCKS very very sucks...

But again. No one understands... No one can cause maybe being gay in this life... have to pay lots lots and lots of prices. well I understand that but can i never be at ease. at least give me one man... gorgeous one for me (LOLS) who can understand... being understand'ed... no cheater... and definitely a man who can cope with both of sides I will grow up with.... and so be it I will understand him too...
LOLS more more these days... my hope and criteria bout boyfriend... just become
at least you are breathing, can cope with me, cute, and definitely a gentleman :-) lols hahahaha

Here's one of my poems in time

5w 1h by Go Darmadi Unjaya
Cascade has been layered over the window
Crystal has been refined throw the tow
Memories has been carved over the shadow

Is that what people wanna have?
Only politics that screw the wave?
Giving others pain by taking the live?

Wanna ask for the brittle bird that comes alive
who is really for me to show my greatest fear and happiness
what is the real choice in my life to put me in ease
why is the politics always consume hearts of the finest
when it will be done, the pain of misery consuming me
where I will be gone someday if love is gone
How I am gonna survive these life without man beside me

the answer...

Let the Time tell you
Let the Destiny arrives
Let the justice prevail
Let the mind ease you
Let the butterfly take you
Let the man have you...

Thank you