HOW FOOLISH I AM

Now The Puzzle really complete... and The decision is made
I am really really stupid for thinking my life will be a fairytail ahahhahaha
For hoping there will be a hope again to the closing door...
I am really really have lot of passion these days, not because I want you back, Because I love you....
But Like everyone said.. we have to know our limit...
AND...
my limit is after reading your blog... I am broken apart, BUT THAT also trigger my inner side...
That I already burried deep when my first relationship with NATE... Hemmm... Somehow... Drawn to your inner demon is a feeling of happiness right now...
Now I know the feeling of when you have explode but you cannot explode... YOU ARE NUMBED
So you just laughed at your foolishness... your true self are rebooting but it will take LONG time...
And being controlled by inner demon... Which has no heart and feelings to you again...
From My Facebook in case YOU wanna read it for the last time you will be recognized by me...

"HOW YOU READ IS HOW YOU INTERPRET...
DEATH not always the ending but it can be a new beginning
5 wands of pentacle doesn't always mean that everything is hopeless, it means we have to argue for something to worth winning... Your friend can read tarrots...
Sorry to say... I am a born tarrot reader and interpreter... I knew all along it will be like this again and again... I knew it from the beginning, but I see you just clouded by the reading of your friend... OK then... now i realize... I am in vain and stupid... That time I read the blog... That time my heart completely die again, and this time permanently, cannot feel anything again now... hahaha... tomorrow I will take my belongings... and completely leave... Sorry for still having thoughts and hope... sorry for the tweets, sorry for the blogs, sorry for everything... But there will be no BOX of memories... BECAUSE THE BEAR I KNEW... WAS ALREADY DEAD... 3.29 and conscious I will not mourn... I can move on, but I choose not too... I am not alone I have enough friends, YOU ARE THE ONE LONELY... OK THEN... I take my leave... and... I have no brother anymore... he is dead since he wasn't truthful to me anymore... THAnKS BRO... but you don't know me so well in the end...
DEVIL MODE :ON(again)"

I am not doing this for myself, not for wanting you as my boyfriend again, I only want you to get out from your fucking miserable lonely life... but I know now... once it is already broken... it will be broken and i will never get the same glass... so... YOU in MY Previous Life... are already DEAD, your smile, your laugh, your tears and everything... JUST GONE BY THE WIND... YOU now.. just silly pitiful little monster... you are not a monster you say... but what is a person without heart called? Monster right? Hahahaha...

I am a wrecked guy maybe a lonely guy maybe... but I still have what every people heart that can know... To have a limitation... So funny I am mistakenly judging my life because of the silly song in mind... Hahahaha... I am such a dumbass... I wanna laugh but I am now... Once again... I will be stronger by the time I wake up... And I let my demon without soul controlled me... I have my heart though even for now... I burried it deep. deep deep... This time... you will never change my mind even the future are changed like hell... I am no human that can easily clouded by logic of a tarrot... I believe my feelings and intuition with logical explanation... so it will give me best solution... HUFFT... I am so LEGA

Lega karena setelah sekian lama aku ga kembali jadi GO DARMADI UNJAYA yang ceria keras kepala dan juga pintar berbicara... Hahahaha papa mama cece... sinyo udah balik nih... hahaha... jadi sinyo yang bakal percaya cinta sejati sinyo ada dan juga... akan selamanya berpegang teguh pada apa yang sudah sinyo jalanin... tidak akan ada lagi perasaan sedih ataupun bersalah, ga ada lagi proses membuang buang harga diri kek orang murahan hanya untuk orang yang sudah mati dan membusuk dalam pikiran sinyo sekarang
GO sudah bebas sekarang dari segala belenggu yang selama ini menarik GO untuk berjuang memenangkan hati yang sudah membusuk karena luka yang tak pernah diobati... Hahahahahaha... Mulai saat ini... GO akan lebih mengedepankan intuisi GO, tidak ada hati untuk orang ASIA... hanya mau dengan bule... Hahahaha.. dan juga orang yang bukan berzodiak AQUARIUS... untuk selama2nya... Hahahahahahahahha... 

Ternyata... menjadi bahagia itu sangat gampang ketimbang menjadi gloomy sepanjang hari mengemis cinta pada makhluk yang tak bertuan maupun berhati... Hahahahahaha... lols... Sudah selesai perjuangan GO untuk satu pria ... biarlah jadi yang ketiga... namun bukan yang terakhir GO yakin...

hahahahaha... lols dan pastinya untuk selanjutnya... bukan hanya untuk orang bau kencur... namun orang yang mau belajar mengerti GO... wkwkwkwk... dan GO pasti akan belajar mengerti...
SELAMAT TINGGAL GD, SELAMAT TINGGAL SEN2, BEAR, WALRUS or apapun ITU
KALIAN semua sudah mati di hidup GO... hahaha...


LET IT GO and reach our brightest Future GO(other side)
NB : GA bisa tidur... hahahaha terlalu bersemangat dan merinding