HI guys... Life is not getting easier for me I think. Coping with all of this loneliness makes me feel weird and having this kind of insomnia. I thought maybe it was because I love to watch movies until late but 2 days ago when I just close my eyes without doing anything... I just cannot sleep until morning comes. It has been like this for days now... getting back to my old self... and yeah. somehow... I still do not know what to do in this kind of new life.
Family have been encouraging me to do the pre-loved selling and yeah... I don't really like to online sell cause that is not my forte I think. haha... I guess I am just not doing anything for money huh? but the truth is... I am confused with what I have to do in this time and place... I feel like I did not belong here or anywhere else... Everything is just too strange for me to catch on. I kinda like my previous life back when I can work in an office with all of those conflicts and things... As much as I love being pampered in this house of mine. I love to do something that is having value to my consent. I love to interact with people many people I would say the best, doing some talking, pep talking, motivating, cast a joke to make them smile... I just love doing things for others. and now... in this room I have no one to talk to and being here is just like a "golden" prison of my life.
I know that this COVID thingy make things are not so good right now. BUT, I hope in the mean future that I can really go out again and do what I like and LOVE... As long as there is people that I can talk to... I think I will not worry about relationships and love or so I say I will be independent talking to others sharing my story that hopefully can inspire others to be stronger when things go south and feels like you are in the end of the road...
SORRY for this random thoughts of mine. I just think that I need to vent it out but no one to comfort me so I just write and type since I know that it is also my hobby to write somethings about my life. I mean there are so many stories of my life that I wanna remember when I can survive things up until I get older, oldest and gone.... And I just hope someone can also access this journals too so they will know that... They are not ALONE like I was before, They also share the same life just like me so they will have will to get up and be stronger. Ironically, I don't even know if this is being stronger cause I am still dealing with lots of things....
LIFE GETS BETTER but does not means the JOURNEY and HARDSHIP are over YET...
KEEP PRAYING TO GOD when life goes right or wrong or in doubt, I feel that it is the best medicine also to vent out the loneliness inside. and definitely stay true to yourself for what you really want and what you really need. cause sometimes you also want what you need.
ON THE GROUND
by : Go Darmadi Unjaya
Realizing it was a mistake in the end
Does not really mean it is over
Cause it just a fragment where you and your life upgraded
Smile, Cry, Shout, Vent it all out to the world.
Cause the world can handle it when you could not.
This is HIS creation and HE will handle it for you
AS long as you always believe there is always a solution to every problem
Remember yourself...
Go Darmadi Unjaya...
Does not really mean it is over
Cause it just a fragment where you and your life upgraded
Smile, Cry, Shout, Vent it all out to the world.
Cause the world can handle it when you could not.
This is HIS creation and HE will handle it for you
AS long as you always believe there is always a solution to every problem
Remember yourself...
Go Darmadi Unjaya...
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