Life Nowadays

It has been like 2 months... hahaha very tired to update some blog yeah. i know but yeah. i am still in touch in this blog because this blog is just my OUT from every thing that i really despise in the world. Hahaha. Currently I am working till having what i cannot have before. And life nowadays is not that enjoyable as it is said before. But tried to enjoy it to the fullest since I just want to enjoy every moment life in my life. I have to say thanks to every people who still staying in my life till now. I know I have made lots of mistakes... Who didn't? hahaha. So yeah.... I just got what I deserved in life. I redeemed everything in every possible way. such as surgeries etc. So I hope when I come clean in the future i can have what i call LIFE again....

So I am back again... after meeting my mom and my dad... They are just two loveliest people I ever met in my life. second loveliest is my sister though. I mean... despite everything that I have done to them. and lots of hardship i give them.... They still taking care of me loving me... I just feel very little now... I wanna cry out loud... why my life is not just an ordinary life to make them proud... why my life have to be in this way now. I wish if i can turn the wheel back to my past I will change one series of event so maybe I can have another future. hahaha... but yeah that is so cliche. I know it will not happen in this moment though... But I just hope at least once in my  life i can make them proud having me despite all of things I have done... before last breath I will breathe though... This McDonald's food I will remember all of my life. because I know there will be someone to look out for me that is my family. I believe that family should be like this. It is not easy but it is not  hard either. what you need is just sincerity and trust. :-) Thanks Pa Ma Ce :-) You are always be the oasis of my life.

So for my love life.. Still haven't find someone to rely on after the past event... But I don't really care about it now. since life is not just for love life only right. hehehe... But I believe there will be someone for me somewhere in this world. but for having him to be mine. i need to work on some changes too... since no pain no gain. Love is painful indeed but with the pain you will gain something worth to remember... and to treasure until your death bed. :-)... So cherish the life I had now. and enjoying eating some fast food. hahahaahah...

It is All About Loving What I have and Be Grateful
by : Go Darmadi Unjaya

LOVE MY LIFE 
LOVE MYSELF
LOVE MY DOING
LOVE MY DAY
LOVE MY PARENTS
LOVE MY SISTERS
LOVE MY FAMILIES
LOVE MY SITUATION
LOVE MY CHANGING
LOVE MY WORLD THAT KEEP SPINNING 
LOVE MY TIME THAT ALWAYS GIVE ME SOME TO REDEEM MY BAD KARMA
LOVE MY SOON TO BE HUSBAND (WHEN THE TIME IS COMING AT THE RIGHT TIME)

PS : Be Grateful for everything you already have. Don't care what you still not have but  other people have... Because YOU ARE YOU.... OTHERS are OTHERS