Hi... Long time no see Guys (if there is any viewer LOLS XD) It has been a long time since my last update...
I have something to tell today... I do not know why that today is so bright but again so dark inside me... Maybe it is because i remembered my ex and what he did to me in the past 8 months... This morning i am just crying like a baby waiting my eyes to put lid in my night... And now I am listening to AILEE song's SAKURA that slap me in reality that the love is faded away and like sakura that its leave flutter to the ground... There is no coming back from the painful reality... It is like misery in the bottom of the ocean... When one thing i really need is LOVE... I lose it again and again... Sometimes I ask GOD when it will be the ending of this misery... When will I find the man that truly true and be good to me... It is funny right??? that today out of the 365 days i felt so little and somehow being nice is the hardest thing to do or think... Here is the story of today...
Today is not just that breezy there is one man that again make my heart sway away... Still the same person but yeah for the record i know that there will be no relationship come from us but still the longing for him still so hard to resist.... But I am being a jerk today to him. (or so he thought that I was). Maybe it is because i do not know what to say anymore to him. Since when I open my mouth he surely will tell me to shut up and tell me that I am attacking him like hourly basis... So what should I say then if every words of mine just attack him. I do not even know what i do wrong. but yeah. I tried to be good and calm then he again tell me that i am being somewhat sensitive or jerk ... Speechless it is word that can describe me now. hahaha... it is again... into this point to the end of the road... Many times to GOD i wished that I can be with the man I really like or LOVE... like him... but yeah... reality speak louder than my imagination to make believe it is impossible to grasp the love that does not even there... for him to know. hahaha... The man I like/love is a perfect man that doesnt even know how to be mistaken... Hahahah... I think after listening to this song... I realize....
"IT(THE LOVE) HAS TO FADE AWAY LIKE SAKURA" Because If i keep going chasing him till the end of my time i will never find him loving me back... and that is what you call the irony of being ME... So yeah... I do not know if this is the best way to deal with my pain... but being strong even though i am coughing blood is one thing that i can and have to do to be at least far away from him...
Like a SAKURA... I want to make this poem to dedicate it to him... (The Baby in My Life, My Deoryunim),
SAKURA
by : Go Darmadi Unjaya
Spring has come when we hear the sound of the wind...
Seeing the smile of someone that can melt away the frozen heart
Flutter away like the SAKURA
Making no sound but surely fall to the ground
Longing for you is like the best thing in life
Waiting and keep doing what I can do to see your smile
Like the blossom of SAKURA that can sway any pain
Cherishing the beauty of your smile while being strong to stay beside you
I want to be with you for the rest of my life
But again it is just my desire to be with someone i cannot reach in life
So when the SAKURA falls it is beautiful yet so painful
Because it will go faraway till the scent cannot be sense anymore.
This emptiness is coming back to me BUT...
I know that I ever Love a man LIKE you... It is... my HAPPINESS
PS : This is dedicated to YOU... 191916
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