Two are better than one...

This is inspiring theme of my life right now...
Even though the change is not as fast as fast & furious I am happy now
That i can spend times... with him...
I am not having the privilege like the old time... but i know... that's for the best
Let the time make things smooth

Papa... Happy 55th... This complete my day :)

After a series of event...
6 hours doing macro economic... made me stressed out and collapse...
I just do not know... why i easily get dizzy today... like my head want to burst and unbalance...
Hahahaha anyway... today... in the morning till the afternoon... i taught and learn together with my friends about macro economics... I am so great and I am more cheerful when talking... Oooh How I love my life today
Complete the teaching and move on to my boarding house and listened to a cheerful song of HOPE... kyaa fantastic baby(Ummm not that actually TEE HEE)... lols wakakakaka
And after that i go straight away to a warm house for cooking dinner with everything i've got...

Chicken Dancing with Mushroom in the Soy Lake... Hihihihhhi...

For him I can give the best... and i love cooking again after 3 months not doing that, i think now my skill even get better and eventhough I got muscle pain in my left arm... Who cares... As long as I am happy the pain will go away... watching someone ate my dishes with enthusiasm... motivated me to the max especially this is he important person in my life... hahahaha... Hope you enjoy my dish Bear... XD

Another interesting moment... well RUN BY A DOG until SCREAMED out loud like a bitch TT... That moment i was so afraid i cannot move my hand from my mouth hahahah... but have to be stronger than a DOG huakakakakaka... seeing his face... let my fear lifted... WOO HOO... i am so psyched... and so great... well yeah, this is a life, MY LIFE... is getting better... Hope today (because it is already 0.49) will be such a nice day with lots of insight... or well will be a challenging day of another Present for my life hihihih... I am tough, i can be the best because i already reborn as the strongest walrus of the year... Finally The silence is cracked and the emotions once again... relaxed... How come i am not being grateful right now...
For me this is better than enough... KYAAA>... I am so modest but really2... HAPPY

NB : MACRO oh god why... still 201 questions to ansver... but I'll survive hihihi...
P.S. I Love You (Book Which Present I will give before I have no time left... XD... I am happy to face my fate now...)

Love Transcend Anything

I just recently by coincidence or this is like insight for me...
I open my youtube just now and get to the video Pink Dot 2011, Support The Freedom to Love
and another video about pink dot said,"Love Transcend Anything". I just happy yet sad
because even I have known that for a long time, I still incapable to give a proof to everyone...
But it is not about the proof anyway... it is about how you can give your best to someone you love

Today i felt really happy because of many things i've read and seen... just give me an insight of being better
For a future that still blur i know it will give me the one i've searching these time... and hoping for...
I cannot say that i am sure because my parents always say to me if you wanna live your future...
Just live in the present first, that time you will know that future is like a pandora box
It will be a good one or a bad one depending on how you behave in the present.
For me that an insight that makes me really motivated... I am not saying I have walked pass him...
But let the time answer that question and i will create a beautiful writing when the time is already ON

the future depends on the present and the present depends on me and you... Hope it will be a good present for me today and will be a start point for a brighter future in the name of transcendental love...

I love you... Always... without stubbornness but with a better understanding.

NB : My Stomach and Lung is hurt, hard to breathe and dizzy... (The Irony and Oh God Why)
Quotes :
Es Inutil intentar que todos lo comprendan
Porque nunca fue necessario, definir un sentimiento
Tan pequeno y a la vez tan GRANDE
Solo hace falta sentirlo

New Gallant Morning

Hi Bloggers... Today is a great day because the sun is shining brighter, the wind is nicer, and  the hope is more advance... I am not sad anymore... because what i want to do and need to do is already done... there will be no regrets. there will be only a new mature man called GD not GO again... because that was the name given to me... by someone precious... so my new nickname... is GD... lols
Hey bloggers... do you know how it feels when you are in love again and again
NOT the pain, not the hunger, not the lust, not the anger, not the happiness...
BUT an UNDERSTANDING with INTEGRITY towards each other and for my cases... towards him XDXDXD
NB : FUZZ macro economics teacher from 9 to 7 HOAKAKKAAKKAKAKAKAKAKAKAAKKAAKAK
ALAY mode ON
LOVE(???) Hell Yeah always ON

Chapter 1 of New Beginning : Last Hug and Kiss

This starry night Page 1 already written...
"In a cold dark street, steps of rejuvenation are heard.
Dwelling with his own feeling he walked the rocky road
Like a life that never been smooth to him he knew
He had to do things not only thinking to do it...
Because he ever heard if WHAT and IF are 2 separated words that means no harm as an individual but really haunting all of your life when it comes into one.
"WHAT IF?" lead to 2 possibilities or more that can give us regrets someday if we do not know things wisely
And that boy did something beyond his own mind that asking for the last hug as an old one, saying goodbye to the entity that is never last. He just smiled, turn away with tears BUT without regrets he walked away from the place that gave him so much memories.
Remember how the water that smell like an iron
Remember how the bed is not so comfy gave him backache
Remember how Atmosphere that seems surreal but gallant
Remember how laugh are heard because of KEN-LEE & karaoke fail
Remember how tears and pains are shed when the conflict start arising
Remember how the "Stacker" give a hole to the foot palm
Remember how the Voices of Happiness are being let out
Remember how the intimacy are built with the smile and laugh
Remember how the hug is hard to let go but sweet as the kiss
ALL OF THAT will be the sweetest memories that will be sealed for now, until the sun rise again above the dark fortress...
That time will be a new beginning of the boy to start over and becoming a nice Lovable man.

THEN THE BOY WALKED AWAY AND SING A7X "DEAR GOD" with a nice smile

In a pain we survive
In a happiness we smile
In a tears we live
In a RELATIONSHIP we LOVE

POWER!!!

They say that power comes from lots of things..
And they are right... even i have no thing to empower me i still have one single lil thing... called motivation
I only want to say... Tonight... 0.16... just got home from Grand City after doing seminar thingy...
Very tired and broken... hahahaha BUT... When i can see him again today, seeing his face with beautiful eyes ate the beef and the chicken... it took me to another world called a bliss
hahahaha... I just forget my tireness... well i can live with only his smile anyway... what a weird man i am hahahah but i was born this way so nothing to deny... about my "how to walk" style that so girly, I don't care but changing things may work for me so i will train my style hahaha...
It is like a treasure for today after i am so galauing... there is a person who can relieve that... and has made me smile till now when i am writing this Blog hahahah
I have one poem... for him... hahahaha... Just things in my mind
AFFECTION       by GD

Glad to born 
Dead to born
Sad to mourn


Time after crossing a river
Made eyes see clearer
That a half part is cheaper
but ONE is always Greater

Analogy to write
Reality to bite
Endless loneliness to admit

Beautiful seed has bloomed
After series of gloomed
Make everything loomed
That is what happened

Silver to gold
Electron to mould
Negative to positive sold


Smiling is a solid objective
Energy is what Cumulative
Neither win or lose i am so active


Later on i will smile you will too
Objective will be reached and you will happy too
Verdict are supposed to be enhance and you will do it too
Ending that seems the best ending for all will be accepted by you too

INSTINCT... AND BELIEVING NOT TO...

It has been 3 days... i am trying my best... to be motivated again to motivate people... lot of things happened in a single day but a lifetime proof will be needed to be executed... so i can make lot of changes in my miserable life... broken heart has already taken over my life... but i realize i will not be that way since there are lots of people that need me to be stronger than this...
Eventhough He asked me to leave
LIKE CHRIS MEDINA SAID... 
How can i leave him when the truth is... now is the time that he needs me most... I am not arrogant but confident and as a promise to my own life... i will not let him be alone again... I know how it feels to be alone even it was only for 2 years. I cannot say how it hurts because... it is not hurt anymore... it is a pain...
SO how hard he wants me to leave... i will not...
AND LIKE NANNY MC Phee said...
I will not leave when you still need me most...
But I will gladly leave when you ask me if you already not need me anymore... That leaves the world to decide that i should leave or not... XD XD XD persistent for accompanying someone that I really love until now


No matter if you just do not love me anymore...
No matter if you just think of me as nobody
No matter if you want to scold me,angry at me or whatever it is
No matter if you have already stop giving trust

Because i will always love you the same or even my love is changing... it will be far greater... because this heart, this mind, even this body... is only thinking about you right now and willingly to give everything... Hahahahahahaha... funny hah how this so called LOVE can make me do things i will never done long time ago XD...


I am starting to prove... I said my strategy now, so if you read this...I know you will deploy your so called "endless wall"
But For me what i will do is... Making an endless knocking to reach you... In your inner circle...


Hopefully you will read...
And the happiest time in the moment is yesterday when you suddenly smile when ate my dish...
That time as if lord of death want to see me... I am ready...
but my objective... still not acquired, so... KEEP FIGHTING GO!!!


Hemm... now it is 10.08 in the morning,felt so cold and great... because... I know you are there... for me someday again even as a boyfriend or a best friend 
LAST:
NB : YOU ARE NOT ALONE. NOW THERE WILL ALWAYS BE ME BESIDE YOU